12 hours ago, Need to End said:

@Chippy @Gaucho tysm. It gets confusing so I appreciate this. My coach says everyone stabilizes and I just don’t feel like I do

Pleasure N2E, just remeber that regardless of what has happened to you and the path you take next, you system is very strong far smarter than we are, it will put all this right for you, just it takes time. But don't loose hope.

13 hours ago, Need to End said:

@Chippy @Gaucho tysm. It gets confusing so I appreciate this. My coach says everyone stabilizes and I just don’t feel like I do

The problem I always had with the traditional thinking on the SA forum, and repeated in various support groups is that it all hinges on the assumption that everyone tolerates these drugs ok.

Some don't.

It's not your fault that you do not tolerate these drugs well. I didn't either. Still, once you come off them, it is likely you will recover in time.

I am massively anxious today. Last night someone I care about just seemed off and disconnected from me and it’s not feeling awesome rn. That’s mildly putting it. I just want done with this pain.

1 minute ago, Need to End said:

I am massively anxious today. Last night someone I care about just seemed off and disconnected from me and it’s not feeling awesome rn. That’s mildly putting it. I just want done with this pain.

Yeah i understand you, it isn't nice when someone is suddenly not wanting your presence randomly.

You could go for a 10 minute meditation if you want to help your body relax a little bit, would make it easier.

I wish it were that easy :( my life is just eroding on every level

I’m sitting there full of anxiety guys. This is what that 3rd day on Prozac felt like way black when. It’s torture

3 hours ago, Need to End said:

I’m sitting there full of anxiety guys. This is what that 3rd day on Prozac felt like way black when. It’s torture

Am sorry for your suffering N2E, remember one day at a time, it won't always be like this. You are stronger than you know.

Just anxiety and sadness while I sit here. Is this normal at 1.55 mg? This is so hard and I’m. Not one to say that. It’s just dread and sadness and hopelessness.

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40 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Just anxiety and sadness while I sit here. Is this normal at 1.55 mg? This is so hard and I’m. Not one to say that. It’s just dread and sadness and hopelessness.

I don’t think there is any “normal” in this process unfortunately. Everyone’s circumstances and experiences are different. All we can say is that you’ll very likely recover in time. So just keep surviving, day by day, and you’ll get there.

58 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Just anxiety and sadness while I sit here. Is this normal at 1.55 mg? This is so hard and I’m. Not one to say that. It’s just dread and sadness and hopelessness.

Yes N2E, what you are feeling is very normal at 1.55mg. We all here have gone through and some still go through this uncomfortable feeling of the healing process to some degree or greater. I as yourself in my early days of withdrawal have felt everything you have described. But please my friend trust the process and the people on this forum when I say we all heal each and every day it truly gets better. Hang on to your strength that God gave you and use it in your toughest time, he God, is guiding you in every step and at the precise time he will guide your mind body and solve. When you get through this it will be a better and more glorious version than you ever anticipated. You will get through this. Hugs xxx Bernadette

Tysm - my fear is that I’ve felt this way for 2 years. The whole time tapering

4 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Tysm - my fear is that I’ve felt this way for 2 years. The whole time tapering

It took me three years to taper and recover. You’ll get there too.

Did you have the fear panic depression and hopelessness on a massive scale and tears regularly that whole time? That’s what scares me

18 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Did you have the fear panic depression and hopelessness on a massive scale and tears regularly that whole time? That’s what scares me

Yes, except for the crying since Paxil blunts the emotions. I woke up praying to make it through the day and went to sleep dreading the next one.

So frustrating and scary. I’m ready for this to be done. Lost enough already. Ty for Sharing @mstimc60

Feel like I’m wasting time holding at 1.55mg for the last week.

Guys I feel like I’m not getting better and the financial pressures just keep mounting to like where I’m going to lose it

6 minutes ago, Need to End said:

Guys I feel like I’m not getting better and the financial pressures just keep mounting to like where I’m going to lose it

You really haven't been tapering very long, all things considered. You can recover and you can really help yourself by not putting unnecessary pressure on yourself to stick to an arbitrary timeline. I understand why you want to get off the meds as soon as possible, but you should also respect what your body is telling you.

2 years and 2 months seems like a long time to me though. To survive this I’ve got to get some relief. I’ve got to make money and be productive . This way of living won’t sustain. Also I don’t know what my body is telling me. To get off or …? Nothing has felt good / better. Constant fear and dread.

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You can start by letting go of your expectations. Instead of fixating on getting off by a certain date, tell yourself it’s okay to give yourself the time you need to deal with your ruminations and other symptoms. You’re putting yourself under tremendous pressure, and all that’s doing is reminding of how you’re failing, when in fact you aren’t. Each day you make it is a success. If you want to get back to being productive as soon as possible, you need to give yourself the space to heal.

So what do I do with dropping etc….?

Edited July 9Jul 9 by Need to End

What’s dripping?

Relationship advice isn’t my forte, but having been married 39 years, I’d say be up front and honest with her. Ask her how she sees the relationship. But be prepared for an answer you may not like.

I meant dropping

while I’m holding the Prozac I want ti cut klonopon down another .125. I’m down to .75 from 1 and have been at .75 for a little over 2 weeks. I haven’t noticed anything different from the drop. Anything wrong with this?

9 hours ago, Need to End said:

while I’m holding the Prozac I want ti cut klonopon down another .125. I’m down to .75 from 1 and have been at .75 for a little over 2 weeks. I haven’t noticed anything different from the drop. Anything wrong with this?

If you are holding Prozac to let your nervous system settle, I wouldn't move the benzo dose ontop. Remember ADs can be activating and Benzos are brakes so taking the brakes off when you are feeling activated might not be the best move. If you want to reduce the Benzo some more, wait till things have settled a little and keep holding Prozac whilst you do it.

Also with a benzo I would not cut more than 20% in a month. With your nervous system I would be more conservative than that. Your last cut was 25% so holding for a bit is a good idea. Generally I would only do 5-10% each time and no more than 20% per month. With you perhaps just 10% a month max and do it in little stages too rather than one drop, keeping an eye out on what your body tells you each time.

Did you get some scales? It is very important to measure your dose.

Ok I’ll hold off. I just want to get that dose down so bad.

I did not get scales yet : (

Today is day 11 of holding at 1.55z. Don’t feel any better or different at all. Feels like a waste of time. Felt pretty bleak and hopeless the last few days it’s been rough.