The surges are so intense they overtake me and overwhelm me, and all I can do is cry and pray while they’re happening, but then in between the surges, I do try to look at the birds outside sometimes I can go for a ride in the car

Sometimes I can look at things on Instagram

2 minutes ago, Finni said:

and all I can do is cry and pray while they’re happening

try to remember it's just symptoms and not reality, let your body cry and let out whatever it needs to without interpretating the symptoms in a bad way or 'end of the world' way.

28 minutes ago, Finni said:

The surges are so intense they overtake me and overwhelm me, and all I can do is cry and pray while they’re happening, but then in between the surges, I do try to look at the birds outside sometimes I can go for a ride in the car

Sometimes I can look at things on Instagram

I'm so sorry finni, you are so brave to handle this and remember your strengths. hold on more, it WILL get easier.

Edited April 4Apr 4 by Fullhealing

@Chippy

I wonder if it would be of any benefit for me to start keeping a diary again 

 

 

1 minute ago, Finni said:

@Chippy

I wonder if it would be of any benefit for me to start keeping a diary again 

 

 

I think there would be no harm @Finni

56 minutes ago, Chippy said:

I think there would be no harm @Finni

I guess if I’m not trying to figure out if I’m having an adverse reaction I don’t really need to do it.

 

I’ll just keep doing a little updates so I can track my progress

1 minute ago, Finni said:

I’ll just keep doing a little updates so I can track my progress

It’s a good idea Finni. 

3 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

I'm so sorry finni, you are so brave to handle this and remember your strengths. hold on more, it WILL get easier.

Thank you much for responding even in the midst of your own pain.
 

❤️💪🏻❤️

16 minutes ago, Finni said:

Thank you much for responding even in the midst of your own pain.
 

❤️💪🏻❤️

No problem, we are all in this together and if I can support even a little, then with great love.

Hope you find a long-term balance soon, it will happen eventually, keep hope alive ❤️

Edited April 4Apr 4 by Fullhealing

@Finni apologise as I do keep on talking about Epsom Salts baths . When i am in that situation of extremness i take an Epsom Salt bath as hot as i can stand and about 4 handfuls of Salt . It really does take the edge off . Wishing you peace and healing 🤗

Happy Easter to those who celebrate! 
💗

On 3/6/2026 at 3:12 AM, Finni said:

Thank you so much!

I’m feeling sorry for myself because I had no intention of even coming off of mirtazapine. It wasn’t doing anything that noticeable until they increased the dose.

 

Love and light to you ✨✨✨

Wow @Finni you’ve been on a carousel of psych meds. I really feel for you 💕

24 minutes ago, Finni said:

Happy Easter to those who celebrate! 
💗

Happy Easter to you! ❤️

25 minutes ago, Finni said:

Happy Easter to those who celebrate! 
💗

Joining in, Happy Easter to everyone ❤️ for us it is a Passover whose title is "From Slavery to Freedom We Came Out" and indeed it is so for all of us.

Health and joy to all.

15 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Joining in, Happy Easter to everyone ❤️ for us it is a Passover whose title is "From Slavery to Freedom We Came Out" and indeed it is so for all of us.

Health and joy to all.

Indeed it is 🙏 

 

Happy Passover ✨

Edited April 5Apr 5 by Finni

17 minutes ago, Beehive said:

Happy Easter to you! ❤️

✨✨✨

1 hour ago, Finni said:

Indeed it is 🙏 

 

Happy Passover ✨

Thank you 🙏 how are you doing?

2 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Thank you 🙏 how are you doing?

Very intense aka-like surges and weird, deep electricity and vestibular symptoms through the roof.

 

Yesterday I nearly went to a crisis center because I was on the verge of just not being able to cope at all

I made it through the middle part of the day, which is the worst for me

 

Symptoms are really starting to spread so deep into my nervous system and feel so strange. I pray that I don’t have to endure too many more days at this level.

 

thank you for asking

 

How is your head?

7 minutes ago, Finni said:

Very intense aka-like surges and weird, deep electricity and vestibular symptoms through the roof.

 

Yesterday I nearly went to a crisis center because I was on the verge of just not being able to cope at all

I made it through the middle part of the day, which is the worst for me

 

Symptoms are really starting to spread so deep into my nervous system and feel so strange. I pray that I don’t have to endure too many more days at this level.

 

thank you for asking

 

How is your head?

Oh goodness, I'm so sorry, I hoped for relief already, you deserve it so much but keep pushing and it will slowly get better, you're a hero! ❤️

And I'm fine, almost no pain, thank you!

I’m so scared 

with each change, planned or accidental, the weirdness of nervous system is stronger 

 

such deep, deep, weird sponginess, and feeling like something‘s crawling inside of me and making me feel like I’m going to scream

full head, depersonalization, nausea, ears ringing, nerve pain 

44 minutes ago, Finni said:

I’m so scared 

with each change, planned or accidental, the weirdness of nervous system is stronger 

 

such deep, deep, weird sponginess, and feeling like something‘s crawling inside of me and making me feel like I’m going to scream

full head, depersonalization, nausea, ears ringing, nerve pain 

finni, I'm so sorry! sounds like aka, I had whole days like this and it is indeed pure hell.

Here is a few things that helped me reduce the intensity.

1. Breathing exercises, sets of 4 times (4 in, 4 hold, 4 out or in more difficult situations in the same format 4 in, 7 hold, 8 out.

2. Light sports, light jumping or a long walk to release trapped energy.

3. Cold/hot shower, alternating.

4. Acceptance on the mental aspect.

With all that the most helpful was time, I know how hard it is to bear but it will get easier.

Hold on and keep sharing as you do so well, whatever comes without filtering, it really helps let off steam.

I will pray it will ease for you.

 

@Finni I just wanted to add that I find a weighted blanket can take the edge off internal squirmy/jittery/weird sensations. I lie on the floor on my side with it over me. Mine is super heavy though, I ordered it like that on purpose. I also find that the yoga pose downward dog gives me some temporary relief from these strange physical sensations as well. I'm sorry you are experiencing this, I get it too and it is dreadful.

Edited April 5Apr 5 by Sminismoni

8:15 am

In the wee hours, I had horrible head pressure and a feeling of extreme withdrawal.

My head is still pounding, and I am incredibly anxious and have surges of terror. 

Tomorrow is the day that Dr. Horowitz is supposed to respond to my email.

I sent in another couple of questions that I hope can be added.

I’ll let you know what my questions were and what he says after I get his response tomorrow morning

8 hours ago, Finni said:

8:15 am

In the wee hours, I had horrible head pressure and a feeling of extreme withdrawal.

My head is still pounding, and I am incredibly anxious and have surges of terror. 

Tomorrow is the day that Dr. Horowitz is supposed to respond to my email.

I sent in another couple of questions that I hope can be added.

I’ll let you know what my questions were and what he says after I get his response tomorrow morning

I hope you get the answers to your questions @Finni, your WD symptoms sound awful. I’ll be interested to hear what advice he gives you. Take care 🤗

Do any of you know someone who had adverse reactions and withdrawal going on at the same time?
 

This morning it feels more like an adverse reaction. There’s a certain flavor that I get in my body That’s a deep deep, twisting, burning activation with shaking and primal gut level terror that is more intense than a withdrawal feeling…

 

The primal, deep, twisting, hideous, gross feeling is more pronounced in the mornings and midday, and then as the day goes on, it feels more like true withdrawal

 

I take mirtazapine at 9:15 PM and it has a long half flight from 20 to 40 hours

Edited April 7Apr 7 by Finni