I can understand your concern ,withdrawal is a minefield none of us can truly understand what is happening in our brains and body . All we can do is to take the best care of ourselves whilst we endure the symptons . You may never know what is happening to you, so maybe its best to let it run its course and keep going the way you have been . A river with no obstacles flows freely . Wishing you peace and healing 🙏

My psychiatrist gave me three options to think about
 

Stay steady and change nothing

 

Reduce mirtazapine to 7.5 mg all in one swoop 

 

Add in a tiny bit of Lexapro liquid 

 

wowza 

6 minutes ago, Finni said:

My psychiatrist gave me three options to think about
 

Stay steady and change nothing

 

Reduce mirtazapine to 7.5 mg all in one swoop 

 

Add in a tiny bit of Lexapro liquid 

 

wowza 

yeah she doesn't know what she is doing, the 2 other options are bad.

7 hours ago, Finni said:

 

 

Reduce mirtazapine to 7.5 mg all in one swoop 

 

Add in a tiny bit of Lexapro liquid 

 

wowza 

🤯

Really rough day yesterday with aka and overwhelm

Stayed activated with constant internal vibration all day, especially in tailbone and head.

Ate dinner

Shower helped vibration while in shower then it all came back after.

Things started quieting down after 7:30 or 8 PM.

9:15 pm : 14.79 mg mirt

Fell asleep

Woke around 10:20 with pressure in head and body

Continued to wake up throughout the night with sweating, head pressure, pressure and tightness in body, anxiety

More often than not, symptoms kick in around 10:30 pm and continue through night

Now it’s 5:24 AM and I have pounding and twisting and panic in my stomach and a lot of pressure in my head

On 4/12/2026 at 11:13 AM, LostinCanada said:

Just give yourself some time....the best thing is to distract...try to do whatever you can to relax and help your body heal...whole foods, gentle exercise, sleep.

Keep a daily log of symptoms and after a month see if anything has lessened. 

❤️🙏

Do you mean a month of being at .1026 g or a month from now?

I know it doesn’t make sense, but I am seeing a difference between when I have to take more off of my pill to get to .1026 g and when I don’t

When I don’t have to take as much off, it seems that I have more reactivity in the middle of the night and more extreme morning symptoms

when I take more off to get to .1026 g , I sleep better

P.s. if these little variations don’t matter then why did my body respond so strongly (in the days after) when I accidentally took a full tablet 3 1/2 weeks ago?

Edited April 15Apr 15 by Finni

3 hours ago, Finni said:

Do you mean a month of being at .1026 g or a month from now?

Yes...unless you have a previous month/months of records. Look for patterns and improvement. But considering dose changes, it is best to look at consistent dosing.

3 hours ago, Finni said:

if these little variations don’t matter then why did my body respond so strongly (in the days after) when I accidentally took a full tablet 3 1/2 weeks ago?

Because a full tablet weighs more than .1026g

You took a larger dose.

9 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

Because a full tablet weighs more than .1026g

You took a larger dose.

Some of my tablets weigh .1014 g

Edited April 15Apr 15 by Finni

9 minutes ago, Finni said:

Some of my tablets weigh .1014 g

again doesn't matter, we don't know what that dose was, on average it's likely to have been higher than the weight you are making now.

8 minutes ago, Finni said:

Some of my tablets weigh .1014 g

So that is when you have to add to it to get .1026g.

That night you took a while pill, what did it weigh,? Either way if it was too much or too little, it was not accurate dosing and therefore you reacted.

You are going in circles on this.

If you are stressing about this, it can cause your body to react negatively, making you think it is the dosing.

Consistent dosing is done by weighing as mentioned.

Who is your manufacturer? Dose the pill have a line down the center?

As mentioned yesterday, grind pills and weigh powder as an option.

Just now, LostinCanada said:

So that is when you have to add to it to get .1026g.

That night you took a while pill, what did it weigh,? Either way if it was too much or too little, it was not accurate dosing and therefore you reacted.

You are going in circles on this.

If you are stressing about this, it can cause your body to react negatively, making you think it is the dosing.

Consistent dosing is done by weighing as mentioned.

Who is your manufacturer? Dose the pill have a line down the center?

As mentioned yesterday, grind pills and weigh powder as an option.

It was a mistake, so I don’t know what it weighed.

Yes, it has a scored line

Apotex manufactures

Edited April 15Apr 15 by Finni

3 minutes ago, Finni said:

I don’t know what it weighed.

Right so that is why you had a reaction....too much or too little.

The scored line means the pill is made in such a way to evenly distribute the drug. This is why we know the weight of the dose is the most accurate consistent method.

I use Apotex as well...my pills vary in weight like yours and is irrelevant as long as you keep you dose weight the same.

4/16/26

last night burning and anxious with twisting electricity in stomach

Felt panicky and pounding in whole body

9:15 pm 14.79 mg mirt

Sleepy at first then anxiety, electric twisting in stomach

Nightmares

electric burning surges through morning and now peaking at midday

Feels unbearable at times

4 minutes ago, Finni said:

4/16/26

last night burning and anxious with twisting electricity in stomach

Felt panicky and pounding in whole body

9:15 pm 14.79 mg mirt

Sleepy at first then anxiety, electric twisting in stomach

Nightmares

electric burning surges through morning and now peaking at midday

Feels unbearable at times

My heart goes out to you @Finni I know it WILL calm down, just hoping so very soon.

Hang in there! Thinking of you and sending lots of strength and love 🩷

9 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

My heart goes out to you @Finni I know it WILL calm down, just hoping so very soon.

Hang in there! Thinking of you and sending lots of strength and love 🩷

It was starting to calm some the day of the accidental whole tablet, so I just have to believe it’s going to calm again. It just takes weeks apparently.

This is all very different from my experience with benzo withdrawal.

@Fullhealing

Strength and love back to you! 💗☀️

20 minutes ago, Finni said:

It was starting to calm some the day of the accidental whole tablet, so I just have to believe it’s going to calm again. It just takes weeks apparently.

This is all very different from my experience with benzo withdrawal.

Yes @Finni keep that strong faith because it will calm down anyway with time, these symptoms are all temporary although I understand that it doesn't feel that way.

And there is no comparison and not necessarily because it is a different family rather due to the system reacting differently at different times, for me this is the hardest withdrawal I have had so far with the same drug that I stopped several times in the past, then I had almost zero physical symptoms and now it is even more dominant than the mental..

32 minutes ago, Finni said:

@Fullhealing

Strength and love back to you! 💗☀️

Thank you @Finni and please remember how strong and brave you are dealing with this horror for so long! I promise you that all of it will pay off when you reach to the other side 💜

4/17/26

Another hard day yesterday, but not too bad until evening.

I used to be better in the evenings and now I feel like I get worse in the evenings. So much inner vibrating and waves of terror and crying.

Around 730 or 8 PM I was able to watch Shrinking on appletv and work mini crosswords.

I got so relaxed. I fell asleep and didn’t take mirtazapine until 9:45 PM.

About 15 minutes after taking it, I started sweating, burning, vibrating.

Throughout the night, I slept on and off, but I have a feeling of lots of motors, going round and round in my head and stomach. Nausea and huge internal vibration now at 5:08 am

Weird numbness in feet and hands.

@Finni I really do feel for you ,this withdrawal is so unpredictable, just when you think there's a routine to it withdrawal decides to change direction ,we still get caught out by it and then start to wonder what's going on . Its so tough at times ,I've had similar where my mornings are worst then evenings good but a few times I started getting bad in the evening . This journey definitely isn't linear or kind . You will probably settle again once you get back into routine just a small blip . Hold on and weather the storm, you can do this ,the storm will pass 🙏

@Beehive 💗💗

57 minutes ago, Finni said:

4/17/26

Another hard day yesterday, but not too bad until evening.

I used to be better in the evenings and now I feel like I get worse in the evenings. So much inner vibrating and waves of terror and crying.

Around 730 or 8 PM I was able to watch Shrinking on appletv and work mini crosswords.

I got so relaxed. I fell asleep and didn’t take mirtazapine until 9:45 PM.

About 15 minutes after taking it, I started sweating, burning, vibrating.

Throughout the night, I slept on and off, but I have a feeling of lots of motors, going round and round in my head and stomach. Nausea and huge internal vibration now at 5:08 am

Weird numbness in feet and hands.

Oh @Finni I'm so sorry, I wish this process wasn't so brutal!!

I wonder what Dr. Horowitz suggested for adverse reaction? You may have mentioned it here already but I can't find it.

Sending you big hug my friend, hold on 🩷🙏

Thank you ❤️

I think I need to schedule another visit with him because I wasn’t reacting this way when I talked to him

I was showing signs of adverse reactions a few weeks ago or months ago… that’s what made me go ahead and drop to 14.7 mg instead of just continuing to hold 15

Edited April 17Apr 17 by Finni