February 6Feb 6 It is a good news, you return to work tomorrow @NT1100B. I am sure that it will help your healing. Svetla 2011-2023 Paxil 2023-2024 Effexor Since February 2024 in anhedonia caused by the long use of AD February 2024-March 2025 drug after drug after drug... 70 rTMS sessions, 8 ketamin infusions-nothing worked March 2025 CT upon doctor "advice" from Desipramine, Viibryd, Lithium at high doses all together in 6 days Since then awful withdrawal: unbearable anxiety, panic attacks, adrenaline rushes, hot flashes, muscle pain over all the body, insomnia, depression, intrusive thoughts, brain fog Current tapering Mirtazapine : December 29,2025-3 mg, February,15, 2025-2,7 mg, February,28-2,5 mg, March,8-2 mg, March,14-1,5 mg, March,20-0 mg
February 6Feb 6 34 minutes ago, skamen said: It is a good news, you return to work tomorrow @NT1100B. I am sure that it will help your healing. Svetla Hi @skamen No I think you have misread something there Svetla, It was I WISH I could miraculously recover and get back to work. Still a pipe dream I am afraid. How are you keeping? I sincerely hope you are starting to feel a tiny bit better🙏 it hurts so much to watch you suffer so much from these EVIL drugs, and ignorant Doctors. I am praying for you and wishing you the best Svetla. please stay strong and safe. Take care, B.🙏🙏🙏🙏🌷 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
February 6Feb 6 Oh, sorry, dear B., indeed I misread... My witsh to return to work is so huge that when I see the word "work" my brain starts to hallucinate... I was able to have a broken 5 hours sleep interrupted by cortisol spikes and hot flashes. Living hell. The anxiety and the hellish anhedonia kill me. Let's stay connected, @NT1100B to be able to survive. Svetla 2011-2023 Paxil 2023-2024 Effexor Since February 2024 in anhedonia caused by the long use of AD February 2024-March 2025 drug after drug after drug... 70 rTMS sessions, 8 ketamin infusions-nothing worked March 2025 CT upon doctor "advice" from Desipramine, Viibryd, Lithium at high doses all together in 6 days Since then awful withdrawal: unbearable anxiety, panic attacks, adrenaline rushes, hot flashes, muscle pain over all the body, insomnia, depression, intrusive thoughts, brain fog Current tapering Mirtazapine : December 29,2025-3 mg, February,15, 2025-2,7 mg, February,28-2,5 mg, March,8-2 mg, March,14-1,5 mg, March,20-0 mg
February 7Feb 7 8 hours ago, skamen said: Let's stay connected, @NT1100B to be able to survive. Svetla We most certainly WILL @skamen Guaranteed. We WILL survive. Thanks Svetla, B.🙏💙 Morning @Chippy How's it going my good man, I hope things are lifting for you. Getting very busy on here now eh, you and Luke have pulled off a winner. Take care, B.👍 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
February 7Feb 7 Author 6 minutes ago, NT1100B said: We most certainly WILL @skamen Guaranteed. We WILL survive. Thanks Svetla, B.🙏💙 Morning @Chippy How's it going my good man, I hope things are lifting for you. Getting very busy on here now eh, you and Luke have pulled off a winner. Take care, B.👍 Morning bud yeah a bit of traffic here now isn’t there! Erm ok I guess. Same sleep 5.5 hours straight the through. Pattern continues. Did get a nice chunk maybe 20/30 mins extra after maybe even some other bits. Hard to tell. So signs the rest of the sleep trying to happen. Be nice wouldn’t it. Feel ok today apart from the burning brain. It’s back this morning. 🫣 Yesterday a really decent day. 8/10 all day. Honestly maybe a 9 at points. So really good. Slowly slowing slowly getting there perhaps. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 7Feb 7 16 minutes ago, Chippy said: Yesterday a really decent day. 8/10 all day. Honestly maybe a 9 at points. So really good. Slowly slowing slowly getting there perhaps. Very good @Chippy You are definitely getting nearer now mate.👍👍😁 Take care and keep plodding, B.👍😁 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
February 7Feb 7 28 minutes ago, Chippy said: Yesterday a really decent day. 8/10 all day. Honestly maybe a 9 at points. So really good. @Chippy, this is awesome! A 9, wow! Looking good, really think this will be your year!🙏🪟🌞 Aug 2022- Mirtzapine 15 (3 weeks) Sept 2022 - Jan 2023 Escitalopram 10 Dec 2023- April 2024 Escitalopram 2.5 June 2024 -Escitalopram 2.5 July 2024-Nov 2024 Escitalopram 5 Nov 2024- Feb 2025 Escitalopram 2.5 Feb 2025, 1 Prozac, 1 Zoloft cross taper Feb 19, 2025 off all meds, major WD https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/32394-hopeperseveres-escitalopr%C3%A1m-generic-lexapro-journey/page/
February 7Feb 7 Author 40 minutes ago, HopePerseveres2.0 said: @Chippy, this is awesome! A 9, wow! Looking good, really think this will be your year!🙏🪟🌞 Thanks HopeP! Fingers crossed! I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 7Feb 7 What the hell 7.5 , I am so happy for you Mr B 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀 On Paxil since 1995. Seroquel added 2014 after withdrawal crash. History of too-fast tapers/reinstatements. 21 April 2025 taper two drugs at once Paxil 4% Seroquel 3.5% per monththat ended up being too much and changed to one drug at a time 13 Jul 2025: 4% Paxil cut29 Jul 2025: 5% Paxil cut 6 Aug 2025: began holdOct 2025: changed from liquid to powder and accidentally took 10x Seroquel dose for 2 weeks by mistake23 Oct 2025: returned to liquid with accidental 4.7% Seroquel cut Holding both drugs to stablizeHolding at Paxil 8.25 mg / Seroquel 6.5Paxil taper22/4 8.23 29/4 8.20 5/5 8.15 13/5 8.05 3/6 8 11/6 7.95 18/7 7.5
February 7Feb 7 17 hours ago, Chippy said: Yesterday a really decent day. 8/10 all day. Honestly maybe a 9 at points. So really good. Dang...I hit my like quota again. So happy for you. 🎉🎉🎉💯💯💯 I am not a medical professional. My comments are based on my personal experience and information on SA. Paroxetine-2002 onward-20mg/ Citalopram-2007-20 mg-straight switch from paroxetine-back to paroxetine after a month/ Sertraline -25 mg-Dec 2016- given for a month instead of paroxetine (doctor mistake) Oxazepam -10 mg-2016-twice weekly for a couple months for sleep/ Zopiclone -3.75-7.5mg-2020-2022-once a week for sleep/Paroxetine -20 yr+/ Dec2018-May 2022 20 mg/ May 2022 30mg/2022.07.28-2022.08.24 30mg to 0mg/ Prozac-10mg August 24-29 2022/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.11.28-2022.12.04/10mg-Dec 5&6/22/ Prozac-10mg-Dec 8&9/22/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.12.07 to 2023.07.01 TAPER-Paroxetine-2023-Jul 2-4.9mg/ Jul 21-4.8mg/Jul 28-4.73mg/Aug 4-4.65mg /Sep 21-4.58 mg/Oct 27-4.56 mg/Dec 5-4.54 mg/2024-Jan 2-4.52 mg/Jan 9-4.51 mg/Jan 17-4.49 mg/Jan 26-4.47mg/Feb 6-4.46mg/Feb 19-4.44mg /Apr 4-4.43mg/Apr 28-4.4 mg/May 5-4.39 mg/May 19-4.36 mg/Jul 2-4.34 mg/Jul 9-4.32mg/Jul 31-4.3 mg/Oct 1-4.29mg/Nov 27-4.25 mg/Dec 5-4.22mg/2025-Jan 5-4.17mg/Feb 2-4.1mg/Mar 7-4.07mg/Apr 23-4.04mg/May 23-4mg/Jun 22-3.99mg/Jun 30-3.95mg/Jul 18-3.92mg/Sep 25-3.9mg/2026-Mar 25-3.85mg/Sep 18-3.8mg 9am-paroxetine, 200mg mag bisglycinate/75 mg DGL if needed for reflux/150 mg calcium citrate/algae oil for omega 3/ginger as needed for nausea/500 mg of Vitamin C for cortisol "... your strength will be in keeping calm..."-Isaiah 30:15
February 8Feb 8 21 hours ago, Chippy said: Yesterday a really decent day. 8/10 all day. Honestly maybe a 9 at points. So really good. Slowly slowing slowly getting there perhaps. Hey @Chippy Just dropped by your thread to check out how you have been doing of late - thrilled to see you have made some fab progress 🙌🏻. Long may the 9s last! I hope that sleep begins to normalise a bit more for you soon. Have you managed to work through WD? I’m assuming with the name Chippy and the profile pic you are a carpenter? I can’t imagine physical work would be easy in WD. Wishing you well, G 🌈🪟 2011 - Metoclopramide for pregnancy sickness2016 - 2017 - Citalopram - doctors “taper” I.e. CT - no effects 2016 - 2025 -various meds, antihistamines 2016-19, PPI 2021-2022, Xonvea for pregnancy sickness 2023-2024, 2016-2023 daily Imodium. 2025 -March 2025 - adverse reaction to iron infusion.April 2025 - daily fexofenadine (Allegra). July 2025 - Citalopram- 10mg 3 tablets taken at night, on the 3rd morning I took Quercetin 500mg supplement and had a terrible reaction possibly “moderate” Serotonin Syndrome. CT from Citalopram. 2025 - July - October acute “withdrawal” or CNS damage from citalopram mirroring CT withdrawal November - December - improving lots, Windows and waves ☀️ Needing advice on future pregnancies/medication/food sensitivity in my thread!
February 8Feb 8 Author 4 hours ago, LostinCanada said: Dang...I hit my like quota again. So happy for you. 🎉🎉🎉💯💯💯 Haha brilliant! Good effort! Thanks. I’m so up and down still. Terrible burning brain/head pressure yesterday. But I’m loving the 8/9 when it’s there! I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 8Feb 8 Author 47 minutes ago, SparklingG said: Hey @Chippy Just dropped by your thread to check out how you have been doing of late - thrilled to see you have made some fab progress 🙌🏻. Long may the 9s last! I hope that sleep begins to normalise a bit more for you soon. Have you managed to work through WD? I’m assuming with the name Chippy and the profile pic you are a carpenter? I can’t imagine physical work would be easy in WD. Wishing you well, G 🌈🪟 Hey G Thanks for stopping by. You’re always welcome 😀 Appreciate that some days it feels like progress other days not so much. Yeah Carpentry is one hat. Not done any of that professionally since wd. I’m lucky I have a bunch of string to my bow and can continue those things from home. I’m very fortunate in that way. Chippy I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 8Feb 8 Morning @Chippy how's it going this morning mate? I hope you are still on the upward trend. Take care and keep plodding Bud. B.🤞👍 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
February 8Feb 8 Author Just now, NT1100B said: Morning @Chippy how's it going this morning mate? I hope you are still on the upward trend. Take care and keep plodding Bud. B.🤞👍 Morning mate Im not too bad this morning. Don’t think I’m as good as I was a couple of days ago. Slept good. 6 hours bang straight through. Nothing after. Typical this now. Good but would love some more. I’ll get it eventually. Horrible day yesterday. Brain burnt all day. Absolutely horrendous!!! It will improve in time I’m sure but whilst it’s happening it’s really hard to deal with. Again. Time. Cheers for asking after me as ever my good friend. Chippy I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 8Feb 8 Oh hell @Chippy sorry to read this mate, gawd strewth it just bloody WON'T let go will it. Hell it does infuriate me does that. The time you have been fighting I really thought you had turned the corner. So so hard to keep spirits up when we continually keep getting knocked back. This is what the ones that don't understand DON'T see. Keep plodding Bud. Take care, B.🤞 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
February 8Feb 8 24 minutes ago, Chippy said: Morning mate Im not too bad this morning. Don’t think I’m as good as I was a couple of days ago. Slept good. 6 hours bang straight through. Nothing after. Typical this now. Good but would love some more. I’ll get it eventually. Horrible day yesterday. Brain burnt all day. Absolutely horrendous!!! It will improve in time I’m sure but whilst it’s happening it’s really hard to deal with. Again. Time. Cheers for asking after me as ever my good friend. Chippy Always present with encouraging words and wise advices, not taken for granted @Chippy thank you, hopefully the day will smile on you. 1998 forced on cipramil *no anxiety/depression background*Over the years all kinds of SSRI/SNRI/antipsychotics/stabilizers due to apparently side effects/withdrawalMany attempts to quit over the years with failure (extremely rapid taper followed by doctors' guidens)Current attempt-Paxil 20 mg:6/24 20 mg to 5 mg-severe AKA9/24 Increase to 20-AKA continues10/24 stopped completely-AKA out of control 11/24 Zoloft bridge attempt-25 mg to 75 mg+Seroquel-AKA continued-stopped them CT.12/24 Back on Paxil 10mg (0.1789g)-some stabilization-from here tapered by about 30% each time (don't remember doses and dates).2025 - 7.10 0.0558g (3.11mg)/7.11 3% 0.0541g (3.02mg)/4.12 1% 0.0535g (2.98mg)2026 - 3.1 1.5% 0.0526g (2.93mg)/9.1 8.5% 0.0480g (2.68mg)/16.2 1.8% 0.0470g (2.62mg)/21.3 1% 0.466 (2.60mg)/23.4 2.2% 0.455g (2.54mg)/8.7 21.7% 0.0356.5g (2mg)/15.8 updose by 11.7% 0.0400g (2.23mg)Supplements:Magnesium Glycinate - started 28.5.26 1 capsule 200mg in the morning - Increased brain fog and muscle stiffness - stopped after two weeks.Iron - liquid, quarter of recommended dose - increased anxiety and burning sensation - stopped after two weeks.Saffron - started 8.7.26 1 capsule 30mg in the morning - pretty immediate improvement in terms of terror, body pain and sleep.
February 8Feb 8 8 hours ago, cheeky said: happy for you Mr B 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀 Thanks @cheeky I hope you are doing as well as you can be. Take care and please stay safe. B🦘🤞👍 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
February 8Feb 8 Author 3 minutes ago, NT1100B said: Oh hell @Chippy sorry to read this mate, gawd strewth it just bloody WON'T let go will it. Hell it does infuriate me does that. The time you have been fighting I really thought you had turned the corner. So so hard to keep spirits up when we continually keep getting knocked back. This is what the ones that don't understand DON'T see. Keep plodding Bud. Take care, B.🤞 Thanks mate. I’m making some progress it’s just the typical nature of all this isn’t it. A lot better so far today. Bit off but ok generally. I’ll be alright eventually I know it. I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 8Feb 8 Author 2 minutes ago, Fullhealing said: Always present with encouraging words and wise advices, not taken for granted @Chippy thank you, hopefully the day will smile on you. Thanks @Fullhealingalways appreciate you. Yours is a rough journey right now. You’ll be rewarded soon enough. X I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 8Feb 8 12 minutes ago, Chippy said: I’ll be alright eventually I know it. Oh well @Chippy If you are feeling that confidence mate, very good on you. Wishing you the best. Take care, B.👍 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
February 8Feb 8 Author 1 minute ago, NT1100B said: Oh well @Chippy If you are feeling that confidence mate, very good on you. Wishing you the best. Take care, B.👍 I do mate. For all of us. 👍 I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 8Feb 8 Sorry to hear about the burning brain, seems like you’re getting there though @Chippy with some really good days in the mix which must really help you keep the faith. Glad today is a bit easier x 3 weeks Paxil around 2002 I think can’t really remember. CT no issues except for a few head zaps.1 day Citalopram Dec 201710/07/25 - Mirtazapine 7.5mg19/07 - 15mg, 01/08 7.5mg, 15/08 dissolving orodispersible tablets for easier measuring 6mg, 22/08 5mg, 04/09 4mg, 18/09 3mg, 02/10 2.5mg, 16/10 2mg, 30/10 1.5mg, 13/11 1.2mg taper paused due to WD symptoms, had a window 17th March continuous improvement until early June when I went back into a moderate but manageable wave after overdoing things until early July when taking omeprazole for gastritis pushed me into another bad wave. Still waiting to stabilise before proceeding with taper.Supplements - 100mg magnesium glycinate daily.Other meds - Omeprazole 20mg a day when gastritis flares - realised after taking this for 8 days end of June ‘26 I was experiencing some WD symptoms again and researched to find PPIs block the liver enzymes used to metabolise a lot of antidepressants artificially raising blood levels. Stopped omeprazole and 2 weeks later back into a bad wave as my body has reacted as if I’ve updosed and then dropped again.Post menopausal GP has prescribed HRT but have not started as don’t want to confuse my system while tapering.
February 8Feb 8 Author 34 minutes ago, Emsy said: Sorry to hear about the burning brain, seems like you’re getting there though @Chippy with some really good days in the mix which must really help you keep the faith. Glad today is a bit easier x Thanks Emsy. It's no straight line out of this thats for sure! x I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys. If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.ukFor US members details here.
February 9Feb 9 Morning @Chippy how's it going mate? have you recovered any yet? I am hoping you are lifting out of this one now, keep gently plodding mate. Take care, B.🤞👍 2001-2021 Prozac 20mg 2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg 2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg 2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg 2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated. 2023 June 30th tapering off 2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.
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