31 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

I'm just pissed, letting off some steam I guess and truly sorry for the negative tone, can't seem to be on the positive atm.

@Fullhealing You're entitled to feel pissed off and I understand the negative tone you mention — it doesn't come across negatively, more like someone who's having a hard time of it — which you are. 

What's white night? 🤗

29 minutes ago, Catbird said:

@Fullhealing You're entitled to feel pissed off and I understand the negative tone you mention — it doesn't come across negatively, more like someone who's having a hard time of it — which you are. 

What's white night? 🤗

Thanks @Catbird means sleepless night, thought it's global term 🤦

Edited March 5Mar 5 by Fullhealing

Thinking of you @Fullhealing all this will be a distant memory one day!

 

Praying for peace in your region. Xxx

3 hours ago, Chippy said:

Thinking of you @Fullhealing all this will be a distant memory one day!

 

Praying for peace in your region. Xxx

Amen to both @Chippy thanks a lot!

Update 19:00pm

So what's been brewing since yesterday..

Night, sky trembled so there was barely any sleep but around 6 I managed to catch up a few hours so that was very helpful.

Woke up with a relatively friendly mind, although I was still restless I managed to channel it into house/garden chores which was good.

Throughout the day there were two flare-ups but it passed quite quickly, it's possible that a positive pattern is forming since the waves, at least it seems, are getting shorter.

Still no work, everything is closed except for essentials but I will see this as an opportunity to reorganize, any additional pressure would take me to the edge.

Current symptoms:

still some chest pressure with restlessness, head pressure with dry sinuses, apart from that there are the regulars which are tinnitus although less loud, food sensitivities and digestive problems, twitching and allergy attacks but it's tolerable as for now.

40 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 19:00pm

So what's been brewing since yesterday..

Night, sky trembled so there was barely any sleep but around 6 I managed to catch up a few hours so that was very helpful.

Woke up with a relatively friendly mind, although I was still restless I managed to channel it into house/garden chores which was good.

Throughout the day there were two flare-ups but it passed quite quickly, it's possible that a positive pattern is forming since the waves, at least it seems, are getting shorter.

Still no work, everything is closed except for essentials but I will see this as an opportunity to reorganize, any additional pressure would take me to the edge.

Current symptoms:

still some chest pressure with restlessness, head pressure with dry sinuses, apart from that there are the regulars which are tinnitus although less loud, food sensitivities and digestive problems, twitching and allergy attacks but it's tolerable as for now.

I'm very proud of you and how you are handling everything.  Despite of what you country is going through, you are still managing everything as calm as possible...

 

Keep praying for you and a soon recovery.  I'm hoping to be on the same dose as you in the future.   

 

I believe my body will be feeling better at a lower dose, but I can't make changes yet...im waiting for the right moment...

@Fullhealing So good to hear. You will pull through. No doubt at all. 
Shorter waves, able to engage in house work and gardening. Short up flairs… It sure looks like the rute I took. 
So importen to recognize these small improvements as they lead one forward. Your patients brought you here. You are doing the right things. 
 

How is the situation concerning the war in the area where you live? You wrote you run to the shelter. Are they bombing close to where you live?

I hope this madness soon will end.

🙏💕

Edited March 5Mar 5 by Haa

12 minutes ago, Raymond said:

I'm very proud of you and how you are handling everything.  Despite of what you country is going through, you are still managing everything as calm as possible...

 

Keep praying for you and a soon recovery.  I'm hoping to be on the same dose as you in the future.   

 

I believe my body will be feeling better at a lower dose, but I can't make changes yet...im waiting for the right moment...

So kind of you @Raymond thanks a lot! I have no doubt in your abilities to handle this journey, you are doing great, you will get to the other side whenever you get there without setting a time, I cut back too quickly and paid a price for it so it is so good that you have a finger on the pulse and are attentive to your body, you know yourself best to know when the right time to cut back so just keep trusting yourself! 🙏

29 minutes ago, Haa said:

@Fullhealing So good to hear. You will pull through. No doubt at all. 
Shorter waves, able to engage in house work and gardening. Short up flairs… It sure looks like the rute I took. 
So importen to recognize these small improvements as they lead one forward. Your patients brought you here. You are doing the right things. 
 

How is the situation concerning the war in the area where you live? You wrote you run to the shelter. Are they bombing close to where you live?

I hope this madness soon will end.

🙏💕

Thanks a lot @Haa you are so supportive 💞 appreciate you!

You're right, it's so important to recognize the small improvements, there's a tendency to paint everything in black when in reality it's not, I'm trying my best to work on it, and it seems, at least for now, that it's bearing fruit.

In terms of war, unfortunately we're in the center, close to Tel Aviv, so there's activity here, we're running to shelters quite a bit, there were bomb fragments here but no casualties at least in our area, thank God.

And yes, we all also hope and pray that this madness will end, but that will only happen when the dictatorship there is completely destroyed, which means there's still time.

I'm just hoping for as few casualties as possible on all fronts.

34 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

So kind of you @Raymond thanks a lot! I have no doubt in your abilities to handle this journey, you are doing great, you will get to the other side whenever you get there without setting a time, I cut back too quickly and paid a price for it so it is so good that you have a finger on the pulse and are attentive to your body, you know yourself best to know when the right time to cut back so just keep trusting yourself! 🙏

I think you just answered the question that I was going to ask you… I was going to ask if part of why you’re getting more windows is because your dose is lower now…But it sounds like you wish that you would’ve held at a different/higher dose to stabilize.

Edited March 5Mar 5 by Finni

8 minutes ago, Finni said:

I think you just answered the question that I was going to ask you… I was going to ask if part of why you’re getting more windows is because your dose was lower now…But it sounds like you wish that you would’ve held at a different/higher dose to stabilize.

To be honest, I'm not sure, the lower doses are considered more brutal, but it seems that at this point, perhaps stabilization is evident.. maybe it's a combination of working on my mindset. Looking back, I should have waited more between cuts, on the other hand, it seems that the more my body cleanses, the more there is improvement, again, not really sure.. I just hope this isn't the calm before the storm..

17 minutes ago, Haa said:

Lovely @Haa ✨✨

36 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

To be honest, I'm not sure, the lower doses are considered more brutal, but it seems that at this point, perhaps stabilization is evident.. maybe it's a combination of working on my mindset. Looking back, I should have waited more between cuts, on the other hand, it seems that the more my body cleanses, the more there is improvement, again, not really sure.. I just hope this isn't the calm before the storm..

I know there’s no way to really know for sure

Thanks for answering

🩷

How long have you been holding? I’m not sure if I’m reading your signature correctly.

Edited March 5Mar 5 by Finni

9 minutes ago, Finni said:

I know there’s no way to really know for sure

Thanks for answering

🩷

How long have you been holding? I’m not sure if I’m reading your signature correctly.

Sure 🤗

not that long, 17 days but it was if I remember right the lowest percent so far.

Adding: Nope, I'm wrong, 2 cuts before it was even lower..

Edited March 5Mar 5 by Fullhealing

11 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 19:00pm

So what's been brewing since yesterday..

Night, sky trembled so there was barely any sleep but around 6 I managed to catch up a few hours so that was very helpful.

Woke up with a relatively friendly mind, although I was still restless I managed to channel it into house/garden chores which was good.

Throughout the day there were two flare-ups but it passed quite quickly, it's possible that a positive pattern is forming since the waves, at least it seems, are getting shorter.

Still no work, everything is closed except for essentials but I will see this as an opportunity to reorganize, any additional pressure would take me to the edge.

Current symptoms:

still some chest pressure with restlessness, head pressure with dry sinuses, apart from that there are the regulars which are tinnitus although less loud, food sensitivities and digestive problems, twitching and allergy attacks but it's tolerable as for now.

@Fullhealing sounds like things are getting a little easy 😀 pleased to hear it. Got it crossed this is starting to turn a corner for you. Xxxx

9 hours ago, Chippy said:

@Fullhealing sounds like things are getting a little easy 😀 pleased to hear it. Got it crossed this is starting to turn a corner for you. Xxxx

Thank you @Chippy things have flipped again since but it is what it is and we must keep moving regardless.. 🤷

hopefully you day is going easy!

Edited March 6Mar 6 by Fullhealing

1 minute ago, Fullhealing said:

Thank you @Chippy things have flipped again since but it is what it is and we must keep moving regardless.. 🤷

hopefully you day is going easy!

Hope this eases again soon for you. xxxx

Last days update

 

Friday: 

night - sweat, nightmares, few awakenings, sinus pressure and extreme dry mouth.

morning started with headaches/neck/shoulders/joint pains, heart palpitations, chest pain, body weakness, terrible digestion, depression along with flashes of fear/terror and extreme inner restlessness, extremely loud tinnitus, inability to tolerate any noise.

In addition, excessive smoking, almost uncontrollable, began since the last three cuts along with other strange compolsive behaviours, a bit more than 3 months.

 

Saturday:

Night - disturbed sleep, still excessive sweating and several awakenings.

During the day, still body weakness with muscle/joint pain, headache, tinnitus still very loud, irritable digestion, bloated stomach, allergies, dry sinuses, stuffy nose, rested most of the day, towards the end of the day the headache subsided.

Mentally, depression including irrational fears, restlessness and irritability. reduced my smoking to at least half today, will try to continue that.

 

Today 8:30

Woke up at 4.30, no physical flare-up atm although mentally still very restless along with loud tinnitus, irritable digestion and bloated stomach, allergies as well.

Vitamins: Ferritin and vitamin D not yet in deficiency but at the very low limit, will start taking only iron+c and see how the body reacts.

@Fullhealing so sorry you're struggling with such an array of WD symptoms. Sending you wishes you'll find some stability in the near future. Insomnia is such a cruel phenomenon 🤗🧡

5 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Last days update

 

Friday: 

night - sweat, nightmares, few awakenings, sinus pressure and extreme dry mouth.

morning started with headaches/neck/shoulders/joint pains, heart palpitations, chest pain, body weakness, terrible digestion, depression along with flashes of fear/terror and extreme inner restlessness, extremely loud tinnitus, inability to tolerate any noise.

In addition, excessive smoking, almost uncontrollable, began since the last three cuts along with other strange compolsive behaviours, a bit more than 3 months.

 

Saturday:

Night - disturbed sleep, still excessive sweating and several awakenings.

During the day, still body weakness with muscle/joint pain, headache, tinnitus still very loud, irritable digestion, bloated stomach, allergies, dry sinuses, stuffy nose, rested most of the day, towards the end of the day the headache subsided.

Mentally, depression including irrational fears, restlessness and irritability. reduced my smoking to at least half today, will try to continue that.

 

Today 8:30

Woke up at 4.30, no physical flare-up atm although mentally still very restless along with loud tinnitus, irritable digestion and bloated stomach, allergies as well.

Vitamins: Ferritin and vitamin D not yet in deficiency but at the very low limit, will start taking only iron+c and see how the body reacts.

Im so sorry you’re having such a hard wave 🫂 💗

 

You’ve had Windows before and you will again! 🪟 ✨🌿

 

I’m wondering about nicotine… Since it’s a drug, I wonder if it would help your nervous system to smoke exactly the same amount every day…

Just thinking “out loud”…

 

 

 

 

6 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

Last days update

 

Friday: 

night - sweat, nightmares, few awakenings, sinus pressure and extreme dry mouth.

morning started with headaches/neck/shoulders/joint pains, heart palpitations, chest pain, body weakness, terrible digestion, depression along with flashes of fear/terror and extreme inner restlessness, extremely loud tinnitus, inability to tolerate any noise.

In addition, excessive smoking, almost uncontrollable, began since the last three cuts along with other strange compolsive behaviours, a bit more than 3 months.

 

Saturday:

Night - disturbed sleep, still excessive sweating and several awakenings.

During the day, still body weakness with muscle/joint pain, headache, tinnitus still very loud, irritable digestion, bloated stomach, allergies, dry sinuses, stuffy nose, rested most of the day, towards the end of the day the headache subsided.

Mentally, depression including irrational fears, restlessness and irritability. reduced my smoking to at least half today, will try to continue that.

 

Today 8:30

Woke up at 4.30, no physical flare-up atm although mentally still very restless along with loud tinnitus, irritable digestion and bloated stomach, allergies as well.

Vitamins: Ferritin and vitamin D not yet in deficiency but at the very low limit, will start taking only iron+c and see how the body reacts.

Im sorry to hear about your suffering.....it's a very painful journey, but you can do it .

 

 

Prayers to you and hope for full recovery...

5 hours ago, Catbird said:

@Fullhealing so sorry you're struggling with such an array of WD symptoms. Sending you wishes you'll find some stability in the near future. Insomnia is such a cruel phenomenon 🤗🧡

Thank you @Catbird yes, lack of sleep.. brutal and amplifies everything.. hopefully it's will get better.

Appreciate your kind support! 💜

 

2 hours ago, Raymond said:

Im sorry to hear about your suffering.....it's a very painful journey, but you can do it .

 

 

Prayers to you and hope for full recovery...

Appreciate that @Raymond thank you! A few rough days but maybe a tiny improvement for now so that's a lot.

I hope you're doing relatively ok today!

3 hours ago, Finni said:

Im so sorry you’re having such a hard wave 🫂 💗

 

You’ve had Windows before and you will again! 🪟 ✨🌿

 

I’m wondering about nicotine… Since it’s a drug, I wonder if it would help your nervous system to smoke exactly the same amount every day…

Just thinking “out loud”…

 

 

 

 

Thanks a lot @Finni 💞 small important as for now, im thankful.

Regarding nicotine, it's been wild in the last few months, I've never smoked so heavily and it's at a suffocating level!!

I'm trying to figure out if it's related to increased compulsivity since the last cuts, I've seen a lot of people describe all kinds of obsessive behaviors like this during withdrawal..

I've managed to cut back in the last couple of days and my body is thanking me so I'll try to keep it up.

Edited March 8Mar 8 by Fullhealing