Hey B, I saw a post from you on SA right before Christmas. I got caught up with notifications there today. I have been more involved here for about a little over a month. Plus at that prior time, I had all of that hormonal stuff going on—very low energy, unlike me.

Today, I posted back to you on SA, and am so glad we are connected here on AR. Just wanted you to know about it before the SA site closes out tomorrow.
I’m happy for you to be getting somethings sorted out and that you seem to be doing a bit better. Six hours of sleep is a good sign! Take care my friend!

14 hours ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

one day this will be lifted and life will🙏

Thanks @Its-me-Rosie immensely, much appreciated. I am very sorry to hear you are in a wave again Rosie,

god it sucks. I was I bit better yesterday but that's now gone, 4 hours broken sleep last night and I am on a 1 again.

So yes this gets more the trying it really does. But like you say, spring next and hopefully BETTER days coming 

for us ALL. I am wishing for your wave to disappear very SOON. 

Take care and stay strong,           B.🙏🙏🙏🤞🌷

17 hours ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

2 eggs a day is meant to be around 70% of daily vitamin D so try to get some eggs in you, if you can! Hope the nausea has eased.

 

I eat 3-4 a day.

 

Perhaps that's why I'm such a ray of sunshine.

13 hours ago, Luke said:

 

I eat 3-4 a day.

 

Perhaps that's why I'm such a ray of sunshine.

Just like your signature has some humor too…🙃🤣

Hello B! So good to see you! I was super sad to check SA for the last time tonight. Really heartbreaking after getting to know folks these past few months. Alas, here we are! I'll be keeping an eye on you. ☺️🌻

1 hour ago, gardengirl2 said:

Alas, here we are! I'll be keeping an eye on you. ☺️🌻

Good of you @gardengirl2 That will be very good thanks.

Stay safe and take care.         B.👍

Morning all, just said goodbye to SA which is very sad. I spent, a recon up.....over 2000 hours on there. A long time.

But thanks to Luke & Chippy, here we are at the brilliant AR. Life moves on, nothing stays the same, and hopefully we

are moving and healing with it. So a bit damp on my 4.30am walk this morning. 4 hours broken sleep and on a 2. So not

horrific, but not good either. I have a long long way to go before I see any improvement.  So yesterday I got my food shop

done OK and gradually lifted to a 4 after mid-day.

 

Not good, but not too bad either, I don't seem to be having any BIG lifts anymore. All part of PWD I suppose, it's all just 

guesswork, as we are all different and healing is so slow and irregular. But time keeps moving, the day weeks and months

pass by, February ALREADY and being a short month always goes fast. So yes that's the irritating thing with PWD it just

doesn't seem to change. So it's onwards we will plod.

Take care all,                   B.🤞👍 

Hey B

 

Yes a bit like first day of a new school isnt it.

 

I was over on SA at the last moment. It was weird, one minute I could post, next minute I couldn't.

No fireworks just quietly went offline. You can barely tell. 

 

Glad to see a trend here. 4 in the afternoon 2 in the mornings. Seems roughly you've been doing a tiny bit better recently. Got it crossed things are taking a turn in the right direction. Heaven knows its about time right!

 

Hope you improve throughout the day again. 

 

Chippy

10 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Morning all, just said goodbye to SA which is very sad. I spent, a recon up.....over 2000 hours on there. A long time.

But thanks to Luke & Chippy, here we are at the brilliant AR. Life moves on, nothing stays the same, and hopefully we

are moving and healing with it. So a bit damp on my 4.30am walk this morning. 4 hours broken sleep and on a 2. So not

horrific, but not good either. I have a long long way to go before I see any improvement.  So yesterday I got my food shop

done OK and gradually lifted to a 4 after mid-day.

 

Not good, but not too bad either, I don't seem to be having any BIG lifts anymore. All part of PWD I suppose, it's all just 

guesswork, as we are all different and healing is so slow and irregular. But time keeps moving, the day weeks and months

pass by, February ALREADY and being a short month always goes fast. So yes that's the irritating thing with PWD it just

doesn't seem to change. So it's onwards we will plod.

Take care all,                   B.🤞👍 

Hey B, sorry you're not seeing great improvement (yet) but glad at least that you're not extremely low.

It will get better, have a blessed day.

 

Edited February 1Feb 1 by Fullhealing

3 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Hope you improve throughout the day again. 

 

Chippy

Thanks @Chippy yes, me too. Yes we have left SA and you and I are at the very beginning  of the forum list👍

That should stay that way now as well. Sad to be gone.....BUT here we are.

Take care,         B.🤞👍

4 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Hey B, sorry you're not seeing great improvement (yet) but glad at least that you're not extremely low.

It will get better, have a blessed day.

 

Thanks @Fullhealing It will be what it will be, But yes I am wishing you a GOOD one as well. Slow and easy.

Take great care,           B.🤞👍

30 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

BUT here we are.

As you said and I said on my goodbye post on Friday. Nothing stays the same. Including all this suffering. We will heal. 

1 minute ago, Chippy said:

As you said and I said on my goodbye post on Friday. Nothing stays the same. Including all this suffering. We will heal. 

We will @Chippy It's just battling with the pwd mind, It can really lie to us.

Take care,        B.

I'm improving a lot, even though there's more to go.

 

I was incredibly severely harmed, and I believe that if it is possible for me to improve, it is for many others too, in time.

26 minutes ago, Luke said:

I was incredibly severely harmed, and I believe that if it is possible for me to improve, it is for many others too, in time.

Thanks @Luke that's EXCELENT news, VERY inspiring mate. VERY well done👍

Take care,           B.🤞👍

3 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @Chippy yes, me too. Yes we have left SA and you and I are at the very beginning  of the forum list👍

That should stay that way now as well. Sad to be gone.....BUT here we are.

Take care,         B.🤞👍

I just looked and we are. I was the last ever post! 😆

Hi again folks, well I have lifted to a 5 today strangely, I didn't think I would early this morning, so there 

you go. Now I have been down memory lane today reading my own thread on SA. Interesting, I got reminded

about the yellow card, SO I went ahead on a GOV website and filled one in, saying MIRT had destroyed my life.

 

Down in black and white now, with my name and address on it so I am down for the counting. So yes I am up to

July, and between 4-7 so I was doing better then than I am now. I was more cheerful then as well. What has it done

to me?????   So yes but today has been the best day in months, WILL this last?.....I don't know. I certainly would hope

it's more than one day, BUT it's always the dreaded sleep reset.  

 

Oh well I can live in hope, I have been in a wave for over 70 days, so I might have a slim chance of getting a bit more

good 🤞So it's the car recall on Wednesday, I would be happy if I was just good on that one day, that would do me 

for now. So I will see what happens tonight and just keep gently plodding on.

Take care all,          B.👍

1 hour ago, NT1100B said:

Hi again folks, well I have lifted to a 5 today strangely, I didn't think I would early this morning, so there 

you go. Now I have been down memory lane today reading my own thread on SA. Interesting, I got reminded

about the yellow card, SO I went ahead on a GOV website and filled one in, saying MIRT had destroyed my life.

 

Down in black and white now, with my name and address on it so I am down for the counting. So yes I am up to

July, and between 4-7 so I was doing better then than I am now. I was more cheerful then as well. What has it done

to me?????   So yes but today has been the best day in months, WILL this last?.....I don't know. I certainly would hope

it's more than one day, BUT it's always the dreaded sleep reset.  

 

Oh well I can live in hope, I have been in a wave for over 70 days, so I might have a slim chance of getting a bit more

good 🤞So it's the car recall on Wednesday, I would be happy if I was just good on that one day, that would do me 

for now. So I will see what happens tonight and just keep gently plodding on.

Take care all,          B.👍

70 days, gosh that's so tough but your holding so well, im so very pleased you had a good day today, I wish it would last long and hoping your nights will improve as well, you really deserve a good rest from all of it.

Sending good vibes your way.

 

 

2 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Hi again folks, well I have lifted to a 5 today strangely, I didn't think I would early this morning, so there 

you go. Now I have been down memory lane today reading my own thread on SA. Interesting, I got reminded

about the yellow card, SO I went ahead on a GOV website and filled one in, saying MIRT had destroyed my life.

 

I'm glad that you lifted somewhat.

 

Thank you for making a report, it is definitely worth it. They also do often manually read them.

7 hours ago, Fullhealing said:

I wish it would last long and hoping your nights will improve as well, you really deserve a good rest from all of it.

Sending good vibes your way.

Thanks @Fullhealing Awake at 1am again 4 hours broken sleep, back on a 1 and feeling bad yet again. Sleep reset.

This happens without fail every night. Cortisol and Histamine I would say. How long to correct the balance who knows.

I will just see how my day pans out. I hope you are doing OK and not in too much horrible trauma.

Take great care,       B.🙏🙏🤞

Morning all, so here I am again typing at 2am, awake on a 1 at 1am after 4 hours broken sleep. Sleep reset in

action yet again. It goes on and on and on. I was hoping after lifting yesterday that I might be lifted out of the

70 day wave, but again it's just been a short respite. This means finding a new job is still no longer possible yet.

 

This is wearing one down the longer it goes on, normality is what we are striving for, and it just seems impossible.

Now I know this is wave thinking because my outlook yesterday was stronger. Nausea back today, Tinnitus loud,

bowl movements still very irregular, twice already from midnight, it's just insanity.

 

Never in my life have I experienced anything as horrific and long lasting as this horrible nightmare. This tests a person

to the very limit. Survival is all it is, the brief spells like yesterday are good, but knowing it's almost like an illusion and

won't last, becomes more obvious every time we are knocked down again. Is it a pointless battle?

 

The wave mind does view it as pointless, with no chance of escape, I really do hope I lift again because at the moment

I am very flat and negative, no sign of escape. Reading my SA thread yesterday, July last year I was in a better state 

than I am now, THAT doesn't look good.

Take care all,        B.

2 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Morning all, so here I am again typing at 2am, awake on a 1 at 1am after 4 hours broken sleep. Sleep reset in

action yet again. It goes on and on and on. I was hoping after lifting yesterday that I might be lifted out of the

70 day wave, but again it's just been a short respite. This means finding a new job is still no longer possible yet.

Hey mate

 

Damn reset again. Sorry B. It’s all just part of it isn’t it. Nothing we can do. I’ve found this too that it keeps doing the sane thing over and over. But eventually as it heals it changes. Still lots of healing to do here but yes it will change for you over Time…. As we know. Time is the healer. 
 

2 hours ago, NT1100B said:

the brief spells like yesterday are good, but knowing it's almost like an illusion and

won't last, becomes more obvious every time we are knocked down again. Is it a pointless battle?

Yes not only have you been lifting in the day but the trajectory of this is upwards too! It is certainly not a pointless battle my friend. 
 

2 hours ago, NT1100B said:

The wave mind does view it as pointless, with no chance of escape, I really do hope I lift again because at the moment

I am very flat and negative, no sign of escape. Reading my SA thread yesterday, July last year I was in a better state 

than I am now, THAT doesn't look good.

Yes ignore the wave mind mate. It’s lying to you. The healing journey isn’t linear. We see BIG waves a year out you are not the only one. Your system knows how to heal and is working very hard to do this for you. You will get there even though it doesn’t feel like it!

 

Chippy

14 minutes ago, Chippy said:

You will get there even though it doesn’t feel like it!

 

Chippy

Thanks @Chippy for the encouragement, I need it this morning as I am very flat. Typical with the car recall coming

up, it's like sods law to be in poor condition for that. The tediousness of this healing, up slightly then knocked back,

really does get to us. Reading my thread yesterday up to July I was a lot more positive, and regular 6-7, yes on 3s 

as well but nothing as bad as this. Oh well lets see what S**t gets thrown up today. 

Take care,        B.

So yes, back off my walk, going back to bed was a waste of time, I didn't sleep or get settled none. So I am now

on a 0, and feeling totally crap, the statistics show I am getting worse. Yesterday was a reasonable lift but not

like the lifts last year. I cannot remember when I was last on the Motorbike, months ago I just have motivation for

nothing. I am just an empty shell. No way to live whatsoever, just a continuous nightmare.

Take care all,         B. 

10 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @Chippy for the encouragement, I need it this morning as I am very flat. Typical with the car recall coming

up, it's like sods law to be in poor condition for that. The tediousness of this healing, up slightly then knocked back,

really does get to us. Reading my thread yesterday up to July I was a lot more positive, and regular 6-7, yes on 3s 

as well but nothing as bad as this. Oh well lets see what S**t gets thrown up today. 

Take care,        B.

We’re all with you B. You’ve got this mate.