28 minutes ago, HopePerseveres2.0 said:

So did I @gardengirl2! I love all the wonderful phrases and places I've learned about from our friends across the pond. The one good thing that came out of this horror, all of our friendships.🤗

@gardengirl2 @HopePerseveres2.0 love this🤣🤣🤣🤣

10 hours ago, LostinCanada said:

Just thinking of Cartmel, Coniston, etc

Kendall mint cake, Beatrix Potter-Hill Top, the steam yacht gondola, sticky toffee pudding....lol

Love you know your uk places. Sticky toffee pudding is mine and boys favourite. Like 1000 cal a portion though!

 

I used to live pretty close to Oxford. Did my bike test right near there. A Trek from Northumberland where I’m now but yes the lakes absolutely stunning LIC. 

23 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Sticky toffee pudding is mine and boys favourite. Like 1000 cal a portion though!

 

I used to live pretty close to Oxford. Did my bike test right near there. A Trek from Northumberland where I’m now but yes the lakes absolutely stunning

Ready to visit @Chippy ! LIC can translate for those of us from the US. The sticky toffee pudding sounds amazing, along with the Kendall mint cake! Never had them.Yum!

3 minutes ago, HopePerseveres2.0 said:

Ready to visit @Chippy ! LIC can translate for those of us from the US. The sticky toffee pudding sounds amazing, along with the Kendall mint cake! Never had them.Yum!

Be great to see you! Kendal mint cake is an acquired taste! Think it’s a hill walking snack traditionally maybe 🤔 

 

stp though is the bomb shizzle!

21 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Kendal mint cake is an acquired taste! Think it’s a hill walking snack traditionally maybe 🤔

Definitely for energy…it’s so sweet. 

26 minutes ago, HopePerseveres2.0 said:

LIC can translate

💯

 

Morning and thanks ALL, well no walk yet this morning, food shop this morning and will be setting off shortly.

So awoke after 4 hours broken sleep in terror on a 0, the dreaded sleep reset, but awakening more this soon

calmed down, and no mental akathisia to get me out on a 3am walk, so meditation on youtube and I was able

to chill out. No more sleep, but that I knew was gone.

 

So I would say on a 3 now, Tinnitus loud again but nausea not as bad this morning, and feeling reasonably calm.

So I will have a run in the car, the see how my food shop goes and then just take it from there. Now I am not 

expecting the same lift as yesterday, but who knows. The thing is I have been punished SO many times with sleep

reset that I am just open to whatever comes my way.

 

But yes yesterday was so gradual it was just surprising, but very welcome from the living hell I have been in for

so long. Now the wave could still be lurking, and strike me down again anytime, which is why I am still ultra cautious.

So yes onwards I plod, I have still loads of problems, but continued healing puts me in better stead to deal with 

those in a more controlled and balanced way.👍

Take care all,         B.🤞👍 

 

49 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Morning and thanks ALL, well no walk yet this morning, food shop this morning and will be setting off shortly.

So awoke after 4 hours broken sleep in terror on a 0, the dreaded sleep reset, but awakening more this soon

calmed down, and no mental akathisia to get me out on a 3am walk, so meditation on youtube and I was able

to chill out. No more sleep, but that I knew was gone.

 

So I would say on a 3 now, Tinnitus loud again but nausea not as bad this morning, and feeling reasonably calm.

So I will have a run in the car, the see how my food shop goes and then just take it from there. Now I am not 

expecting the same lift as yesterday, but who knows. The thing is I have been punished SO many times with sleep

reset that I am just open to whatever comes my way.

 

But yes yesterday was so gradual it was just surprising, but very welcome from the living hell I have been in for

so long. Now the wave could still be lurking, and strike me down again anytime, which is why I am still ultra cautious.

So yes onwards I plod, I have still loads of problems, but continued healing puts me in better stead to deal with 

those in a more controlled and balanced way.👍

Take care all,         B.🤞👍 

 

Well B, apart from the 0 and terror, this is all looking a bit positive isnt it! Ive got a good feeling. Wave is sloooooowly letting go!

 

Hope your shop goes ok today.

 

Chippy

Oh My GOSH!!!!

this is wonderful wonderful news,

7.5 is the best you’ve felt for what….2.5 months???

 I hope it’s lasted for you, it’s so heartening to hear as this means your wave is likely coming to an end and more healing will be round the corner 🙏 

let us know how are you are today.

 

im often worse in the morning. Please to report my wave lifted yesterday afternoon I was on a solid 6/10 and managed to watch the Leeds vs Notts Forest Game with the kids and Leeds won 🙌 they were laughing and shouting and I could feel their joy and felt it a bit!!

 

mornings are always hard for me so not as great this morning but I better than I have been on previous mornings the last two weeks.

 

here’s to a decent day.

id take OK even!

Thankyou @gardengirl2 for the link xx 

Hi all, well a disaster of a morning car wise. Yesterday I thought WELL, the car is fixed, recall done, very good for todays shop.

So I started up and just got off the drive and it says "boot open" on the dash, so I jumps out to check, No boot shut, so I set off

again and the message disappears. Then while driving I find the rear wiper has stopped working. So guessing it's a fuse I just

carry on my drive. Well I get back to town with the boot open sign randomly popping up and get to the Supermarket.

 

Now on the last stretch I heard the central locking clicking, so I tried locking it in the car park, NO, wouldn't lock. So I thought

oh well, this was 7am I will risk it and went for my shopping. So back to the car I get with my shopping and and press starter,

NOTHING, message on dash KEY not detected. DAMN. So breakdown truck ordered. The problem was the electric handbrake

was on and auto gearbox was in park. ALL 4 wheels locked.

 

So an hour later and he arrived, it was nothing he hadn't encountered before and with plastic skids under each tyre he got

it on the truck. So limited garages open on a Saturday, first one we tried they wouldn't attempt. Too complicated. 2nd garage

same thing, one last garage to try, and yes he thought he could fix it. SO we got the car off, put my shopping in the tow truck.

Garage man said he would get the car safe, I couldn't lock it you see. Tools & bits and bobs in the boot.

 

So yes breakdown guy run me home with my shopping, so MORE bloody expense. Now he did think it was the alternator,

But it was dark when I was driving and the lights were working fine, so if that WAS the problem the lights would have gone

out. Well that's my theory. Oh well, I will see what happens. Apart from that, on a 5.

Take care all,        B.🤞🤞

Hey B, 5 is good to hear. I have to scoot for some appts myself this morning (here) but wanted to jump on quickly to say hi. I hope your car is completely fixed soon. 

1 hour ago, NT1100B said:

Hi all, well a disaster of a morning car wise. Yesterday I thought WELL, the car is fixed, recall done, very good for todays shop.

So I started up and just got off the drive and it says "boot open" on the dash, so I jumps out to check, No boot shut, so I set off

again and the message disappears. Then while driving I find the rear wiper has stopped working. So guessing it's a fuse I just

carry on my drive. Well I get back to town with the boot open sign randomly popping up and get to the Supermarket.

 

Now on the last stretch I heard the central locking clicking, so I tried locking it in the car park, NO, wouldn't lock. So I thought

oh well, this was 7am I will risk it and went for my shopping. So back to the car I get with my shopping and and press starter,

NOTHING, message on dash KEY not detected. DAMN. So breakdown truck ordered. The problem was the electric handbrake

was on and auto gearbox was in park. ALL 4 wheels locked.

 

So an hour later and he arrived, it was nothing he hadn't encountered before and with plastic skids under each tyre he got

it on the truck. So limited garages open on a Saturday, first one we tried they wouldn't attempt. Too complicated. 2nd garage

same thing, one last garage to try, and yes he thought he could fix it. SO we got the car off, put my shopping in the tow truck.

Garage man said he would get the car safe, I couldn't lock it you see. Tools & bits and bobs in the boot.

 

So yes breakdown guy run me home with my shopping, so MORE bloody expense. Now he did think it was the alternator,

But it was dark when I was driving and the lights were working fine, so if that WAS the problem the lights would have gone

out. Well that's my theory. Oh well, I will see what happens. Apart from that, on a 5.

Take care all,        B.🤞🤞

Sorry to hear this mate. Glad you're on 5 bud. Hell mate when it rains it pours doesn't it!

The most important thing is that you are on 5, B. Everything else is unimportant, believe me.

Svetla

3 hours ago, Chippy said:

Sorry to hear this mate. Glad you're on 5 bud. Hell mate when it rains it pours doesn't it!

Yes @Chippy you can say that again mate, on a 6 now so even better. But yes bloody car, I think it

will have to go. The electric handbrake will be the next, and they are about £700.

Take care,       B.🤞 

3 hours ago, skamen said:

The most important thing is that you are on 5, B. Everything else is unimportant, believe me.

Svetla

Thanks @skamen that's the one Svetla, Stressful  morning though with that lot. I hope you are doing better🤞

I am still praying for you and sending you spiritual strength.

Take care,       B.🙏🙏🙏🙏🌷

4 hours ago, namastejen1 said:

Hey B, 5 is good to hear. I have to scoot for some appts myself this morning (here) but wanted to jump on quickly to say hi. I hope your car is completely fixed soon. 

Thanks @namastejen1 I hope you are doing OK, Yes car a nightmare at the moment, the Bill I am not looking

forwards to🤬 Lifted to a 6 this afternoon so that's good. 😁

Take care,         B.🤞🌷

9 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Yes @Chippy you can say that again mate, on a 6 now so even better. But yes bloody car, I think it

will have to go. The electric handbrake will be the next, and they are about £700.

Take care,       B.🤞 

Sounds like it might be time doesn’t mate. See how it pans out mate. But yes when these things start to cost big….

Great news you’re on a 6 mate!!!

11 hours ago, Its-me-Rosie said:

here’s to a decent day.

id take OK even!

Thanks @Its-me-Rosie Yes PWD has gone good after a disastrous morning with the car, see above.

So just a bit shaky this morning. I hope you are doing Ok. Wishing you all the best.🤞

Take care         B.🤞🙏🌷

So so glad to hear things are continuing to ease up for you B, apart from the bloody car. The joys of motoring! 
And you survived a stressful morning.

Hope the car gets sorted

3 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @namastejen1 I hope you are doing OK, Yes car a nightmare at the moment, the Bill I am not looking

forwards to🤬 Lifted to a 6 this afternoon so that's good. 😁

Take care,         B.🤞🌷

A 6 is even better. Thanks for asking me how I’ve been. 😊  It has ebbed and flowed over the past few months but seems to be pretty good for the past month.🤞

I can understand the bills with 💰 in and 💵 out 🤨—I know our currency looks different but you get the gist. I really hope that you can get the car straightened out and have another opportunity to procure your benefits or whatever they may be called in the UK. Just do one thing at a time and it’ll all get accomplished. 
It’s late by you now and you might even be sleeping. I hope tomorrow’s a great day for you too. Take care, B! 🤗

22 hours ago, LostinCanada said:

had his jumper on but I am sure his brolly was in the boot. 🤣☂️🤣❤️

Touche, LIC! I really wish I could hear the voices saying these things. Totally cracking me up. 😂

1 hour ago, gardengirl2 said:

Touche, LIC! I really wish I could hear the voices saying these things. Totally cracking me up. 😂

I enjoy this 🤣

10 hours ago, Emsy said:

Hope the car gets sorted

Thanks @Emsy 3rd time in a garage in the space of a week, it will get sorted but £££££££££?

Time I think it was gone.  I hope you are doing better Em, I am praying for you. sending you strength.

Take care,       B.🤞🙏🌷

Morning all, back off my 5.15am walk, damp underfoot but dry at the moment 7c so feeling warm. So I awoke

on a 0 again in terror after 3 hours broken sleep, put meditation on youtube and calmed down and lifted to a 2,

I am on a 3 now. Loud tinnitus, nausea was bad but has settled a bit now, so not feeling horribly bad, just flat.

 

So yes zero motivation and just generally p****d off to be honest, obviously still wave thinking, car out of action

with over a £500 bill imminent, and if I am sensible I will get rid. Motorcycle also to sort out this month, one way

or another and it's already the 8th, so yes not promising at the moment is an understatement. 

 

Now I did lift again yesterday which was very good indeed under the circumstances, but the car trauma highlights

how fragile our brains still are under a stressful situation. Things obviously will get sorted out, but I don't think I 

can trust my car again. 1 problem sends the electrics into chaos mode, leaving you totally stranded. I couldn't

even lock it. But worse, all 4 wheels locked up. Imagine if that was on the motorway or town or city centre !!!!!!

 

So yes zero money coming in, on a time limit for MOT or sale with the motorbike, Car, big bill then?????  No where

near ready for looking for another job yet, with still a long long way to go for full recovery yet, so yes looking at

that there's no wonder I am feeling a bit flat and dejected. But onwards I plod.

Take care all,         B.🤞

 

2 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Morning all, back off my 5.15am walk, damp underfoot but dry at the moment 7c so feeling warm. So I awoke

on a 0 again in terror after 3 hours broken sleep, put meditation on youtube and calmed down and lifted to a 2,

I am on a 3 now. Loud tinnitus, nausea was bad but has settled a bit now, so not feeling horribly bad, just flat.

Morning B

 

Argh that morning Cortisol getting you every time at the moment. I can see it lifting which is good but that’s just awful to have to wake to that. I’m so sorry mate. Hope this resolves soon. It will. It’s good you’ve lifted out of it quickly by the looks of things. 
 

5 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

Now I did lift again yesterday which was very good indeed under the circumstances, but the car trauma highlights

how fragile our brains still are under a stressful situation. Things obviously will get sorted out, but I don't think I 

can trust my car again. 1 problem sends the electrics into chaos mode, leaving you totally stranded. I couldn't

even lock it. But worse, all 4 wheels locked up. Imagine if that was on the motorway or town or city centre !!!!!!

It’s a bit of theme at the moment isn’t. Lifting in the day. Good pattern forming here I hope 🤞 

No you don’t want that with your car. Time for it to go perhaps. Only gonna keep costing you I think. It’s the electrics isn’t it. Always go wrong big when they do. I’m a lover of the older cars. My wife’s is dead simple. So easy to work on. Nothing much to go wrong. 
 

7 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

So yes zero money coming in, on a time limit for MOT or sale with the motorbike, Car, big bill then?????  No where

near ready for looking for another job yet, with still a long long way to go for full recovery yet, so yes looking at

that there's no wonder I am feeling a bit flat and dejected. But onwards I plod.

Take care all,         B.🤞

No it’s fair enough mate. I wish you didn’t have all this to deal with on top of wd. Damm nuance isn’t it. A plan will unfold. You said to me a few weeks back when SA shut something will come up. You were right. Just a bit of time is all it takes and the answer will speak to you.
 

Chippy