18 minutes ago, Chippy said:

It’s easily done. But you are right. It will pass. No 1 AR Warrior! 🛡️ ⚔️ 

Bless you @Chippy you are really something special!

Just now, Fullhealing said:

Bless you @Chippy you are really something special!

Special is certainly one way to describe me! 🤣

8 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Special is certainly one way to describe me! 🤣

Love your humor 😂 you just lifted me a bit! 

3 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Love your humor 😂 you just lifted me a bit! 

Good!

On 3/31/2026 at 11:13 PM, Fullhealing said:

Overall: despite the above, I am still improving, mentally I'm the best I have been in a very long time, physically obviously needs improvement but it will come.

General improvements: digestion much better the last two days, tinnitus also a little less loud.

You are improving and this is great.  My digestion is one of the symptoms that have been long, but improving too   also, mentally clarity is great.  My mind also have improved and have been better than even with the medication.   It's one of the positive things I get.  Other physical symptoms I don't really pay much attention.  I just try to coupe with as time passes by.   If I'm emotionally better and feel good, I can handle the rest.

 

You are doing amazing and eventually the waves are a lot less and hopefully fades away for good.

 

Keep holding...

37 minutes ago, Raymond said:

You are improving and this is great.  My digestion is one of the symptoms that have been long, but improving too   also, mentally clarity is great.  My mind also have improved and have been better than even with the medication.   It's one of the positive things I get.  Other physical symptoms I don't really pay much attention.  I just try to coupe with as time passes by.   If I'm emotionally better and feel good, I can handle the rest.

 

You are doing amazing and eventually the waves are a lot less and hopefully fades away for good.

 

Keep holding...

Thanks @Raymond great to hear you're continuing to improve, I'm pleased for you! thanks for reminding me it's temporary but when it hits with hormonal fluctuations it's a different kind of madness.. oh well, at least you're spared from it..

Still at a self-pity party, sorry, I'll get over it, hopefully soon.

Edited April 2Apr 2 by Fullhealing

45 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Thanks @Raymond great to hear you're continuing to improve, I'm pleased for you! thanks for reminding me it's temporary but when it hits with hormonal fluctuations it's a different kind of madness.. oh well, at least you're spared from it..

Still at a self-pity party, sorry, I'll get over it, hopefully soon.

With all going on with your journey and country, you are a warrior....I'm very happy for you and how you are handling everything.... 👍 🤗 

So sorry for all this! What an awful mixture of neck pain, hormonal turmoil, and general withdrawal… mix in the lack of sleep and I can hardly imagine how one would not drown into self-pity. My heart goes out to you @Fullhealing . In all this, I can still see your spirit, determined to go on, setting the self pity borders. You’re doing great and we are here to cheer you on.

Remember feeling self pity is not a weakness. We can't be strong all the time that's a lot of pressure to put on ourselves. You have a lot going on at the moment its not a step back ,you haven't let yourself down or failed in any way, you are just going through a tough time at the moment.  You will emerge from this ,your not alone in this , you are surrounded by your fellow sufferers who are with you all the way . Another minute closer another hour closer another day closer . In this together 🙏

Thank you @Raymond @Nemina @Beehive I'm blessed to be surrounded by brave warriors like you guys although I am so sorry for all the suffering each of you is going through.

Thank you for your lovely support, it means so much! 🙏

 

Edited April 2Apr 2 by Fullhealing

On 4/1/2026 at 1:01 PM, Fullhealing said:

Thanks @Catbird yes, that's a valid point, since I'm a pusher by nature.

I'm trying to work on giving myself a break but there are things that are under my responsibility that only I can do, just a part of living alone and being used to do everything by myself (which I love mostly).. finding that fine balance is a real challenge.. work in progress.

I can relate to this @Fullhealing. 

 

I hope your neck has settled down. This is all such a challenge and not our fault. 
 

Thanks for your support on my thread. 

 

 

How are you today 🙏

Update 12:10pm

Managed to get quite a bit of sleep, dirty though but at least I slept, grateful for that.

My neck continues to be problematic, the pain has reached an unbearable level which radiates to the head and chest area, nothing seems to help, I haven't touched any painkillers yet so I might go for a thorough check of the area before I start, something is going on there, the knock was serious so maybe a herniated disc, so hopefully not, but we'll see.

Mood is not a hit, a lot of crying yesterday, all the emotional salad, well, hormones.. evil beast!!

As for now, my mind is busy with the pain so it overrides the other symptoms which is better dealing with just one rather several if there any positive here..

Anyway, we'll see how the day goes, if the pain continues to get worse I won't leave it like that.

5 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 12:10pm

Managed to get quite a bit of sleep, dirty though but at least I slept, grateful for that.

My neck continues to be problematic, the pain has reached an unbearable level which radiates to the head and chest area, nothing seems to help, I haven't touched any painkillers yet so I might go for a thorough check of the area before I start, something is going on there, the knock was serious so maybe a herniated disc, so hopefully not, but we'll see.

Mood is not a hit, a lot of crying yesterday, all the emotional salad, well, hormones.. evil beast!!

As for now, my mind is busy with the pain so it overrides the other symptoms which is better dealing with just one rather several if there any positive here..

Anyway, we'll see how the day goes, if the pain continues to get worse I won't leave it like that.

Hey @Beehive well this ☝️ unfortunately..

Thank you for asking, very thoughtful of you 🙏

How you doing? better today or should I say atm?

Edited April 3Apr 3 by Fullhealing

6 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

Update 12:10pm

Managed to get quite a bit of sleep, dirty though but at least I slept, grateful for that.

My neck continues to be problematic, the pain has reached an unbearable level which radiates to the head and chest area, nothing seems to help, I haven't touched any painkillers yet so I might go for a thorough check of the area before I start, something is going on there, the knock was serious so maybe a herniated disc, so hopefully not, but we'll see.

Mood is not a hit, a lot of crying yesterday, all the emotional salad, well, hormones.. evil beast!!

As for now, my mind is busy with the pain so it overrides the other symptoms which is better dealing with just one rather several if there any positive here..

Anyway, we'll see how the day goes, if the pain continues to get worse I won't leave it like that.

Im sorry @Fullhealing yeah getting it checked sounds like a good plan. 

 

Glad you got some sleep. Makes a difference to the day.

9 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Im sorry @Fullhealing yeah getting it checked sounds like a good plan. 

 

Glad you got some sleep. Makes a difference to the day.

Thanks @Chippy yes, at least I might have a diagnosis and know what to watch out for, the massage cushion seems to only make it worse, makes sense if it's a herniated disc.. well, my brain is burning on it, I need to calm down.. whatever happens, I'll deal with it..

How are you today?

5 minutes ago, Fullhealing said:

disc.. well, my brain is burning on it, I need to calm down..

Yes best to not worry to much. Just do what you can. Wish you didn’t have this to deal with too. 
 

Im not terrible today thanks. Bit wobbly but alright relatively. 

I was hoping for a better outcome for you . You are definitely in the thick of it at the moment.  I'm so reluctant to take painkillers but your neck sounds quite bad and if taking them can give you some relief it may give you the space to cope with everything else . I think the neck issue isn't helping at all but yes you know that . None of us are superhuman , but what we have to endure in this journey certainly takes super powers.  We are all with you and sending our super powers your way . Hoping you find an answer 🙏

20 minutes ago, Beehive said:

I was hoping for a better outcome for you . You are definitely in the thick of it at the moment.  I'm so reluctant to take painkillers but your neck sounds quite bad and if taking them can give you some relief it may give you the space to cope with everything else . I think the neck issue isn't helping at all but yes you know that . None of us are superhuman , but what we have to endure in this journey certainly takes super powers.  We are all with you and sending our super powers your way . Hoping you find an answer 🙏

🙏🫶🙏

38 minutes ago, Chippy said:

Yes best to not worry to much. Just do what you can. Wish you didn’t have this to deal with too. 
 

Im not terrible today thanks. Bit wobbly but alright relatively. 

Relatively ok that's good considering, glad to hear that, hope it will clear even more today 🙏

Edited April 3Apr 3 by Fullhealing

@Fullhealing, I have taken acetaminophen for the bad headache I get on the back left side of the head. No side effects than I can see. I'm praying for the easing of your symptoms. Hang in there, friend. ❣️🌻🙏

 

Remember to avoid the following:

Nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs), such as ibuprofen (Advil, Motrin), naproxen (Aleve), and aspirin, are common over-the-counter pain relievers. However, combining them with paroxetine significantly increases the risk of bleeding, particularly in the gastrointestinal (GI) tract. Both SSRIs and NSAIDs inhibit platelet aggregation through different mechanisms, leading to an additive effect that impairs the blood's ability to clot.

3 hours ago, gardengirl2 said:

@Fullhealing, I have taken acetaminophen for the bad headache I get on the back left side of the head. No side effects than I can see. I'm praying for the easing of your symptoms. Hang in there, friend. ❣️🌻🙏

 

Remember to avoid the following:

Nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs), such as ibuprofen (Advil, Motrin), naproxen (Aleve), and aspirin, are common over-the-counter pain relievers. However, combining them with paroxetine significantly increases the risk of bleeding, particularly in the gastrointestinal (GI) tract. Both SSRIs and NSAIDs inhibit platelet aggregation through different mechanisms, leading to an additive effect that impairs the blood's ability to clot.

Interesting about Advil, I had no idea and in fact it is the only painkiller I have been using to survive my PMDD days for almost two decades (double dose) including all sorts of other strong pains, others are just simply ineffective.. well now that I have much less Paxil in my system I can only hope it is not a real issue..

Thanks for the wishes @gardengirl2 the pain is starting to subside a little, I stopped all the aids yesterday, hot pad, massage and it seems to be helping, was also able to pull without Advil which is good, none is obviously better.

We will see where this goes.

How things going for you? Hope you are doing well 🙏

Edited April 4Apr 4 by Fullhealing

Update 12:30pm

Night passed with a bit of disturbances but I managed to get back to sleep despite, about 6 hours in total, excellent.

Yesterday I was a moment away from going to the emergency clinic, my mind was drilling and wouldn't stop feeding me horror scenarios but I held back a little longer and it did get better towards night.

Interestingly, I'm becoming a bit of a hypochondriac with all sorts of other strange disorders, I don't have it naturally as I just don't make a big deal out of things in general but now I can't stop jumping from every little thing.. the deceptive mind in the process is amazing but awareness is already half the solution.

Currently, much better, the pain continues to fade well, I managed to do some gardening, tidying up the house, etc. my mind is relatively quiet as well.

Hopefully today will continue in the same way.

Grateful.

@Fullhealing

So nice to hear. You are doing great. 
Understandable you are ruminating. Our minds are build to find explanations. This time it is disturbed by WD, as you know. Great that you are having energi to do some chores. Tidying up is so nice. It helps me to move my focus on here and now instead of being captured of the WD mind. The way to go. I too hope this state will continue to grow in the right direction. 🐣🐣 Tomorrow is the new beginning. 🙏💕💕

Edited April 4Apr 4 by Haa

That lovely mind that makes us think / believe we are just on the verge of disaster ,don't you just love it ..sequel is great as well . So pleased to hear it settled eventually.  The health anxiety is another trick ,it doesn't want you to get away its trying to keep you where you are and keep you safe .Keep knocking those walls down that it keeps building up around you ,let it know you are safe no matter where you are... all sounds like progress to me keep up the good work