sorry I meant drip not drink

And I think I have this belief that if I taper too fast I’m going to permanently damage and not recover so that’s why I’m asking about how bad you felt before dropping again. Like any way TJ share specially how your depression anxiety and si were when you’d choose to drop?

Edited yesterday at 12:20 AM1 day by Need to End

24 minutes ago, Need to End said:

sorry I meant drip not drink

And I think I have this belief that if I taper too fast I’m going to permanently damage and not recover so that’s why I’m asking about how bad you felt before dropping again. Like any way TJ share specially how your depression anxiety and si were when you’d choose to drop?

Based on the experience of many members here and on other sites, even if you went CT, there’s no such thing as permanent damage, but it does make recovery a lot more difficult. That’s why we advocate for a nice slow steady taper.

My anxiety was often overwhelming as I tapered. My health anxiety was through the roof and I was constantly catastrophizing. But I stuck with my taper because I wanted to be done and I knew I’d recover eventually. Bear in mind I was seeing a therapist throughout this time and he helped me get through the worst times. I can’t emphasize using coping skills enough. Even when it seems hopeless, you have to stick with coping methods. They’ll start working for you as well.

Ty - I don’t know how to express it sufficiently. I’m a paranoid wreck and you are graceful.

I feel the same way you do - just want to get through it. I am sobbing daily and all the other symptoms you know about so I’m like when is too soon. I feel really debilitated but want to be off so my gage for when to taper is non existent. I just don’t have any barometer for it and also don’t want to end up. Suffering for years because I did something wrong.

I understand and know where you’re coming from. There really isn’t an objective barometer to gauge a taper. I wouldn’t worry about suffering for years, or doing something “wrong”. Our bodies are amazing and will heal. We just need to help it do its job by being kind to ourselves and adopting practices that will help our nervous systems settle as much as possible.

14 hours ago, Need to End said:

Ty - I don’t know how to express it sufficiently. I’m a paranoid wreck and you are graceful.

I feel the same way you do - just want to get through it. I am sobbing daily and all the other symptoms you know about so I’m like when is too soon. I feel really debilitated but want to be off so my gage for when to taper is non existent. I just don’t have any barometer for it and also don’t want to end up. Suffering for years because I did something wrong.

How did your drop from 1.4 to 1.35 go? Did it turn out being like your other reductions? If so,I'd take that as more of a positive than a negative.🙂

I am having a really hard time today. Last night I went out with a girl and played pool. When I went into the bathroom a guy apparently quickly came over and hit on her while I as in the bathroom. This kind of thing has never happened before and it’s a sign that I am losing who I am - a guy would never come uniting a girl I was with and hit on her. I feel like nothing small insignificant that he felt it was safe to do that. Then after she shut him down later as I was walking toward him he was like “hey bro your jacked congrats you obviously work out a lot” to me??

Have you ever had a guy hit in a girl like this when you’re out? It’s total disrespect and makes me feel more like I’m losing who I am physically and all.

1 hour ago, Need to End said:

This kind of thing has never happened before and it’s a sign that I am losing who I am - a guy would never come uniting a girl I was with and hit on her. I

The guy was a jerk and that has nothing to do with you or who you are. The fact your companion blew him off proves that. As I've said before, your anxious mind is reading way too much into every incident and turning it into impending doom. You should be happy she handled it so well and it didn't get unpleasant.

Just feel like how dare a guy do that and this has never happened to me. I feel like its me. Im just feeling low. Things just keep caving in.

@Gaucho I think i feel pretty much the same. I think that circumstantial things have made me feel more depressed so I don't know if its the drop or not.

15 hours ago, Need to End said:

@Gaucho I think i feel pretty much the same. I think that circumstantial things have made me feel more depressed so I don't know if its the drop or not.

Got it. In your shoes, Id proceed with tapering as you were doing from 1.45 to 1.40, instead of longer holds like from 1.40 to 1.35.