1 hour ago, Fullhealing said:

  I have to connect with this belief of mine and see the big picture which is that everything was built with perfect precision and imperfection is included in it.

Some old people, rereading their life at an advanced age, realize that "everything had a meaning". May we regain health and be able to say that later, once we are old.

 

It’s difficult to see things from above when we are in turmoil but we must strive to do it.

Edited March 31Mar 31 by poulette38

2 hours ago, skamen said:

 I try to read, to cook... but I don't have any concentration. 

If it can reassure you, I believe that mental fog is the first symptom that improves for many people. And the more it dissipates, more we can do things. It’s already good if you can cook and read, even without concentration. The brain will follow.

On 3/29/2026 at 5:02 AM, skamen said:

After stopping Mirtazapine my symptoms worsened: insomnia, chemical anxiety, inner akatisia, chest pressure, awful cortisol/adrenaline rushes, hellish anhedonia, dark depression, nausea, solar plexus pain, short of breath..., ful agony as before but x1000 worse. I have known that it will be the situation but the intensity is unbearable, I struggle to survive.

Stopping by. I am concerned for you. If you need to reinstate to lessen the symptoms, please do. Our bodies are dependent on these drugs despite the harm they cause. Your CNS has been battered. 

If you think reinstatement would help and lessen the length of suffering, don't hesitate. 

Please be patient and kind to yourself. ❤️🙏

Thank you, @LostinCanada, to check my thread. I am really scaried to reinstate Mirtazapine because even I have tapered it slowly (5 mg since end of August 2025) I never found a comfortable dose on which to stay. I think because of the massive awful 6 days CT in March 2025 from 3 psychotropics at row. Crazy psychiatrist! In addition,the AD has thrown me into the hellish anhedonia in February 2024. My brain rejects it but I know that in the same time it was damaged by 14 years of Paxil. Now I pray for stabilization of the CNS: no more drug movement, no supplements, only time and patience. It is my month 13 after CT and 16 days after the last dose of Mirtazipine. What a hellish drugs. And when I remember that my psychiatrist has told me that I have to take Paxil for all my life... It is crazy . And now he doesn't recognize the withdrawal and tells me never had met a patient like me... He put me "resistant depression" diagnosis and wants to calm my anxiety by benzo... It is criminal.

Thank you to be here, LIC.

Edited April 4Apr 4 by skamen

I understand your concerns @skamen

 

I just wish I could make it easier for you. Time is what we all need, the body will do the rest. ❤️🙏

Thinking of you. @skamen. ❤️  

Thank you, dear @Nemina, you are a sweet person.  I am struggling hard: insomnia, inner mental akatisia, solar plexus pains, awful awful adrenaline rushes at night and morning terror... But I am determined to endure, I don't have any other choice, I have to eliminate the ADs from my brain because they have caused my anhedonia, slowly, treacherously, cruelly. They cut my inner enthusiasm, my joy, have thrown me outside of my profession I adore, have stollen my life and all human sign in me. 

Hope you are stable, dear Nemina. 

Svetla

Edited April 4Apr 4 by skamen

Your determination is great. I am impressed.

I will be so happy on the day I hear of your first window. This day will come! And then there will be more windows. And then a better baseline, and in the end you will be healed. I believe in that. It takes so much patience and endurance, we are with you, we are cheering you on.

We’re always behind you @skamen thinking of you as always. Xxx

I hope that you begin to experience signs of recovery.

 

It is still very early days off of Mirtazapine, there is a lot of precedent for improving in time, but it can take a fair bit. I hope you start to improve soon.

Hi @skamen,

 

How are you feeling now you are completely of mirtz? ❤️‍🩹

Dear @Sophia, thank you for asking. I am 22 days off of psychiatric drug, and the misery is full. The cortisol spikes went worse, my morning terror is awful, I have the feeling that I am dying + dark depression + weight loss (22 kilos), intrusive thoughts, hopelessness, hellish anhedonia, dry eyes, terribly dry... Living Hell. But I haven't had any choice, I had to quit Mirtazapine because the ADs caused me the iatrogenic hellish anhedonia. I was tapering 5 mg of Mirtazapine for 7 months and the Hell was always present. 

How are you doing, Sophia?

I am so sorry @skamen… I really hope you will get your first window soon 😔❤️‍🩹

 

I can relate to the horrible blunting, anhedonia and dry eyes. I have those too.. my worst symptoms + head pressure. 
 

Keeping you in my prayers ❤️🙏

Edited April 10Apr 10 by Sophia

We keep thinking of you and hope and pray that the symptoms will lift….❤️

5 hours ago, skamen said:

Dear @Sophia, thank you for asking. I am 22 days off of psychiatric drug, and the misery is full. The cortisol spikes went worse, my morning terror is awful, I have the feeling that I am dying + dark depression + weight loss (22 kilos), intrusive thoughts, hopelessness, hellish anhedonia, dry eyes, terribly dry... Living Hell. But I haven't had any choice, I had to quit Mirtazapine because the ADs caused me the iatrogenic hellish anhedonia. I was tapering 5 mg of Mirtazapine for 7 months and the Hell was always present. 

How are you doing, Sophia?

Dear @skamen,

 

Did you try the dietary supplements recommended on this site? You can start with small quantities and see how you react. I think it could help with your anxiety. I take magnesium (not bisglycinate but I’m going to buy some), and it seems to work well for anxiety. 

Thank you, @poulette38 and @Nemina to stop by me. I have used magnesium glicinate but it didn't help me. My CNS is so so so sensitized by the psychiatrist's drug changes during the whole next year. I was so stupid and naive to accept everything he experienced with me. But I haven't known that SA existed, I found it so late, and at that moment I understood what happens with me... Hope for healing for everyone on this forum.

Svetla

@skamen you will be rewarded with a beautiful window and stability eventually. You are a warrior and I’m so in awe of your strength! Keep up the good fight. You will get there!

Sending you well wishes, I hope you get relief soon.

11 hours ago, poulette38 said:

Dear @skamen,

 

Did you try the dietary supplements recommended on this site? You can start with small quantities and see how you react. I think it could help with your anxiety. I take magnesium (not bisglycinate but I’m going to buy some), and it seems to work well for anxiety. 

 

For clarity, this site does not recommend any dietary supplements.

 

We urge high levels of caution when trying or introducing any new supplement:

Medications, Supplements and Other Substances in Withdrawal - Symptoms & Coping Strategies - The Antidepressant Harm and Recovery Forum

3 hours ago, Luke said:

 

Pour être clair, ce site ne recommande aucun complément alimentaire.

 

Nous recommandons la plus grande prudence lors de l'essai ou de l'introduction de tout nouveau complément alimentaire :

Médicaments, suppléments et autres substances en cas de sevrage : symptômes et stratégies d’adaptation – Forum sur les méfaits et le rétablissement liés aux antidépresseurs

Hi @Luc

 

Sorry if I expressed myself incorrectly. I have seen cases where supplements could help, especially for morning cortisol spikes (magnesium):

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/606-important-topics-about-tests-supplements-treatments-diet/

 

It doesn’t work for everyone, but in my case it seems to help. Just my experience.
 

Edited April 11Apr 11 by poulette38

14 hours ago, skamen said:

Merci,@poulette38 et@Nemina Je voulais juste vous parler de mon expérience. J'ai essayé le glycinate de magnésium, mais sans succès. Mon système nerveux central est extrêmement sensibilisé par les changements de médicaments du psychiatre pendant toute l'année qui a suivi. J'ai été si naïve et stupide d'accepter tout ce qu'il a vécu avec moi. Je ne savais même pas que l'anxiété sociale existait ; je l'ai découverte bien trop tard, et c'est à ce moment-là que j'ai compris ce qui m'arrivait… J'espère que vous trouverez la guérison.

Svetla

@skamen it's too bad that magnesium bisglycinate didn’t help you. That doesn’t mean he won’t be usefull later, when your nervous system will be more stable... 
Yes, I think it was a shock for all of us to discover this forum. We all discovered it too late, unfortunately... if only we had discovered it BEFORE taking the medication, we would not have taken them... 
Don’t blame yourself for trusting your doctor, we all did... 
Thank you for your kindness. 💛

On 4/11/2026 at 1:02 PM, poulette38 said:

Hi @Luc

 

Sorry if I expressed myself incorrectly. I have seen cases where supplements could help, especially for morning cortisol spikes (magnesium):

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/606-important-topics-about-tests-supplements-treatments-diet/

 

It doesn’t work for everyone, but in my case it seems to help. Just my experience.
 

 

Not a problem. 

 

Yes, some have reported that they have been helped by various supplements.

@skamen

Thinking of you ❤️☀️

Thank you, @Finni. Living Hell, no words to put into the suffering. But I trust the inner capacity of the body to heal. I also thinking of you. We both struggle very very deeply.

8 hours ago, skamen said:

Thank you, @Finni. Living Hell, no words to put into the suffering. But I trust the inner capacity of the body to heal. I also thinking of you. We both struggle very very deeply.

Sending healing thought your way. I too trust the process. The body knows best. Rewards coming your way Svetla.