NT1100B: Mirtazapine

February 22Feb 22

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Morning all, well here I am yet again at 2.45 am, this is murderous, continuous insomnia that just never ends.

awake after 4 hours broken sleep at 1.50am on a 0 yet again. This is worse than bad. It seems I am in a tiny

portion of people who just seem to be affected in a more extreme way somehow. Sleep not improving after

14 months has got to be extreme.

But also being in even longer and more vicious waves, worse than the very beginning of this nightmare is a

sign of adverse brain damage. It just feels there is NO end to the nightmare. Now I know this is wave thinking,

but the TROUBLE is my MIND is set in a WAVE more than any other state now since 27th of November last

YEAR. So coming up a 3 month wave with only about 3 short day respites. So MORE wave thinking than

anything else. This truly is the pits.

Take care, B.

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

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February 22Feb 22

14 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

This truly is the pits

Amen to that….I really feel for you because even though I wake every 90 minutes, I can at least go back to sleep multiple times….. I am seriously so proud of you for continuing to plod along.

18 minutes ago, NT1100B said:

adverse brain damage

I often say I feel like a stroke victim but we know even people that have suffered that, have healed. One foot in front of the other. Sending hugs and 🪟🪟🪟. You deserve a nice long one. ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

I am not a medical professional. My comments are based on my personal experience and information on SA.

Paroxetine-2002 onward-20mg/ Citalopram-2007-20 mg-straight switch from paroxetine-back to paroxetine after a month/ Sertraline -25 mg-Dec 2016- given for a month instead of paroxetine (doctor mistake) Oxazepam -10 mg-2016-twice weekly for a couple months for sleep/ Zopiclone -3.75-7.5mg-2020-2022-once a week for sleep/Paroxetine -20 yr+/ Dec2018-May 2022 20 mg/ May 2022 30mg/2022.07.28-2022.08.24 30mg to 0mg/ Prozac-10mg August 24-29 2022/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.11.28-2022.12.04/10mg-Dec 5&6/22/ Prozac-10mg-Dec 8&9/22/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.12.07 to 2023.07.01

TAPER-Paroxetine-2023-Jul 2-4.9mg/ Jul 21-4.8mg/Jul 28-4.73mg/Aug 4-4.65mg /Sep 21-4.58 mg/Oct 27-4.56 mg/Dec 5-4.54 mg/2024-Jan 2-4.52 mg/Jan 9-4.51 mg/Jan 17-4.49 mg/Jan 26-4.47mg/Feb 6-4.46mg/Feb 19-4.44mg /Apr 4-4.43mg/Apr 28-4.4 mg/May 5-4.39 mg/May 19-4.36 mg/Jul 2-4.34 mg/Jul 9-4.32mg/Jul 31-4.3 mg/Oct 1-4.29mg/Nov 27-4.25 mg/Dec 5-4.22mg/2025-Jan 5-4.17mg/Feb 2-4.1mg/Mar 7-4.07mg/Apr 23-4.04mg/May 23-4mg/Jun 22-3.99mg/Jun 30-3.95mg/Jul 18-3.92mg/Sep 25-3.9mg/2026-Mar 25-3.85mg

9am-paroxetine, 200mg mag bisglycinate/75 mg DGL if needed for refux/150 mg calcium citrate/algae oil for omega 3/ginger 400 mg as needed for nausea

"... your strength will be in keeping calm..."-Isaiah 30:15

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February 22Feb 22

I'm sorry B. This just stinks. And yet you have the wherewithal to reach out and communicate. It's amazing how resilient you are. I'm getting ready for bed, and you're already up. I want this to be a most calm, enjoyable, beautiful day for you. I will keep hoping and praying for that until it happens. May God bless you through the course of this upcoming day with guidance and perseverance. 🙏❣️🌻

Sept 1993 Began paroxetine 20 mg for anxiety and depression- worked like a charm.

1st taper - Aug 1995 tapered over 3 weeks before getting pregnant- great at first, crashed at one month. White knuckled it through 2 miscarriages. Spring 1996 (?) Reinstated paroxetine 20 mg.

2nd taper- Spring 2008 tapered off paroxetine over 4 months. Summer 2008 crashed horribly, nearly incapacitated by WD; Summer 2008-Summer 2009 tried 4 different ADs, none as effective as paroxetine. Summer 2009 Reinstated 20 mg paroxetine, not as effective as previously.

3rd taper- Jun 19, 2019 began 10 mg paroxetine, 10 mg fluoxetine for one week. Jun 26 20 mg fluoxetine, 5 mg paroxetine for one week. Jul 3- 20 mg fluoxetine + lorazepam (0.5 mg) as needed up to 2x/day. Aug 12- 30 mg fluox; Sept 3- .5 mg clonazepam daily; end lorazepam; Sept 5- 40 mg fluox;

End of 2019- returned to paroxetine 20 mg/day most of the year, 30mg/day in the winter.

BEGIN 4th TAPER ATTEMPT: Jul 13 2025- 30 -> 25 mg; 10 Sept -> 22.5mg; 3 Oct -> 20 mg; 10 Oct -> hold 2 weeks; 2 Nov -> 19.5 mg; 9 Nov -> 19 mg; 16 Nov -> hold 1 week; 22 Nov -> 18.6 mg; 30 Nov -> 18.2 mg; 7 Dec -> hold 1 week; 14 Dec -> 17.8 mg; 21 Dec -> 17.5 mg; 28 Dec -> 17.1 mg; 4 Jan 2026 -> 16.7 mg -> hold 2 weeks ; 28 Jan -> 16.4 mg; 1 Feb -> 16.0 mg; 8 Feb -> 15.7 mg; 15 Feb -> hold 2 weeks; 1 Mar -> 15.5 mg; 8 Mar -> 15.2 mg; 15 Mar -> hold; 5 Apr -> 14.9.

Supplements: Vit D, Magesium L-threonate, Vit C, Zinc, Melatonin, Multivitamin

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February 22Feb 22

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29 minutes ago, LostinCanada said:

I often say I feel like a stroke victim but we know even people that have suffered that, have healed. One foot in front of the other. Sending hugs and 🪟🪟🪟. You deserve a nice long one. ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

Thanks loads @LostinCanada VERY much appreciated, I'm at a VERY low point this morning.

I hope you are doing OK LIC, GOD BLESS.

Take care, B.🙏🙏🙏💙

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

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February 22Feb 22

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5 minutes ago, gardengirl2 said:

May God bless you through the course of this upcoming day with guidance and perseverance. 🙏❣️🌻

Thanks @gardengirl2 immensely, very much appreciated, I hope you are OK. God Bless

Take care, B.🙏🙏🙏🤞💙

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

February 22Feb 22

Author

Hi all, back off my walk and feel even worse -0 now, felt VERY lethargic, like a dead man walking.

Nothing more to say today.

Take care, B.

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

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February 22Feb 22

Morning B

Im as ever so very sorry mate. You really are getting kicked hard and it’s just awful. You’ve certainly got it bad and as LIC said I too am in awe of your plodding. You’re such a hero.

I feel you on the brain damage. I feel like my frontal area of my head is bruised. Like it’s be kicked or something. It feels shrivelled and nasty. Like ACTUAL damage. I’m sure it’s nothing if you looked on a scan but something happens to us. A software injury is my thoughts. But as I said it FEELS physical to me. Awful.

I’ve got it all crossed you lift very shortly mate. Man you deserve it that’s for sure.

Chippy

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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February 22Feb 22

I know I’ve read many who have waves this far out. You are not an outlier, dear B. One hour at a time, friend. And continue to preach truth to yourself. Lies that you won’t heal simply aren’t true. Windows are coming. Your nervous system IS healing.

Praying—

AA

Edited February 22Feb 22 by AAoffZ_2

Currently tapering Zoloft as a snail’s pace. View my SA page for the whole story.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/30807-aaoffz-coming-off-sertraline/#comment-682777

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When anxiety was great within me, Your consolation brought me joy.

Psalm 94:19

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Last drop- Sertraline 12/6/25- 81.7 mg

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I am not a medical professional. My comments are based on my own experiences with SSRI WD. Advise a physician about your care.

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February 22Feb 22

Dear B,

Really feeling for you, so many life challenges your PWD even harder. Yep all you can do is keeping putting one foot in front of the other, one day a time. You have to get a break soon.

Look after yourself as best you can under your circumstances.

Tracey

Aug 2006 - Sertraline 25/50/75/100mg TO June 2019 - Reduced from 100mg to 50mg over a few months

Sept 2019 - Reduced from 50mg to 25mg lasted a week, then went back up to 50mg, after a few weeks back up to 100mg.

Oct 2021 - Reduced to 75mg, Dec 2021 (mid) reduced to 50mg , March 2022 - Reduced to 25mg

Oct 2022 - Reduce to 0mg (Immediate withdrawal crying, mood unstable, impending doom, digestive probs, tingling,numbness,burning, brain zaps, insomnia)

Feb 2023 - "Panic attack" lasting 14 hours, 2 weeks later start back on 25mg sertraline, 12 hours later severe 'panic attack' with chest pain, tachycardia, restlessness, hyponatraemia, impending doom, racing thoughts, akathisia mild. Taken to emergency.

March 2023 back up to 50mg (on medical advice), April 75mg, May 100mg. Back to 75mg within a few weeks due to feeling too stimulated and anxious.

Nov 2023 resume taper. 70, 65, 60, 55, 50 (March 2024)

April 45mg, May 41mg, June 37mg, July 34mg Aug 31mg, Sept 28mg, Oct 26mg, Nov 25mg, HOLD

Jan 1st 2025 24mg, Jan 12th 23.5mg, Jan 20th 23mg, Feb 20th 22mg, March 20th 21mg, April 14th 18.9mg, May 5th 17mg, May 28th 15.3mg, July 16th 13.7mg, Aug 26th 12.3mg, Sept 16th 10.5 mg, Sept 22, 10mg, Oct 7th 8.3mg, Nov 4th 8mg, Dec 1st 7.7mg, Dec 26th 7mg 2026 Updose to 7.2mg Mar 20th, Back to 7mg Mar 21. Currently holding

Other supplements: Fish oil, Mg citrate/glycinate 150-300mg per day, Ginkgo biloba daily, womens multi vit/min 3 times week, Vitamin C 1000mg night, valerian/passiflora as needed. B12 as needed. Bone support for osteopaenia (Ca/Mg, K, D)

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February 22Feb 22

Dear B., we are both in the same dark place. I am at the end of my month 12 and I am also worse than the beginning, --0.

Svetla

2011-2023 Paxil

2023-2024 Effexor

Since February 2024 in anhedonia caused by the long use of AD

February 2024-March 2025 drug after drug after drug... 70 rTMS sessions, 8 ketamin infusions-nothing worked

March 2025 CT upon doctor "advice" from Desipramine, Viibryd, Lithium at high doses all together in 6 days

Since then awful withdrawal: unbearable anxiety, panic attacks, adrenaline rushes, hot flashes, muscle pain over all the body, insomnia, depression, intrusive thoughts, brain fog

Current tapering Mirtazapine : December 29,2025-3 mg, February,15, 2025-2,7 mg, February,28-2,5 mg, March,8-2 mg, March,14-1,5 mg, March,20-0 mg

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February 22Feb 22

@NT1100B good times are coming bro Inoe you can’t see it right now but they are stay strong my friend.

❤️🙏👊

Mirtazapine for 3 weeks august 2025 15mg made me numb didn’t know why took an overdose of 10x 15mg tablets.

reinstated at 11 weeks due to symptoms and inpatient stay.

currently on 3.75mg mirtazapine

symptoms/ anhedonia, slightly blurred vision, tinnitus, toxic naps

depression, anxiety, pins and needles

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February 22Feb 22

B. Im in the same kind of puddle of misery. Had a terrible night. Feel F’ing awful today. Yesterday I thought the updose that Horowitz recommended was going to save me as I felt much better. That all went to hell in a hand basket last night. Not sure how much more of this hell I can take.

Pokeys Topic

Pokeys Archived Dose hHistory

Current Medication:

2.5mg of nebivolol for BP

5mg Eliquis x2.

Vitamin D, 40mg Famotidine PRN

Magnesium glycinate ,5mg melatonin

20 March 2025 - Mirtazapine - 7.5mg (+41.5%)

20 Feb 2026 - Doxepin 29.6mg (0.6mg updose)

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February 22Feb 22

17 hours ago, Chippy said:

d I too am in awe of your plodding. You’re such a hero.

I absolutely agree. You are a hero, a hero of perseverance.
I pray for you for a good nights rest.

SA Thread: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/33406-nemina-tapering-escitalopram/

AR Thread: https://antidepressantrecovery.org/topic/14-nemina-tapering-escilatopram-and-zolpidem/

Drug History

2013 - 2025: Zolpidem 5 mg

2015 - Oct 2024: Venlafaxine, Sertralin (Zoloft), Paroxetin (Paxil),duloxtin (cymbalta), Citalopram (Celexa), Escitalopram (Lexapro) and more

Current Drugs

L-Thyroxin 75, Estrogen, Progesteron 200

Tapering Escitalopram

Until Sept 2024: Setralin/zoloft 75 mg

Oct 2024: Switch to Escitalopram / Lexapro 2mg

Then I tapered over a year from 2mg to 0,32 mg (October 2025). 108 days hold without stabilizing. Resumed taper February 2026:

11 Feb 2026 0.314mg

18 Feb 2026 0.307mg

21 Feb 2026 0.302mg

09 Mar 2026 0.297mg

18 April 2026 0,293 mg

18 May 2026 0,285 mg

18 June 2026 0,265 mg

18 July 2026 0,250 mg

18 Aug 2026 0,232 mg

Tapering Zolpidem: From 5 mg to 0,7 mg in 12 months, then just crumbs for several weeks, now 0! (Jan 2025)

Other Supplements

Omega 3, Magnesium Glycinate, Vit D, Calcium, L-theanin.

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February 22Feb 22

Oh, @Pokey449, I am so sorry. Our suffering is unbearable and endless. How do you think to proceed from now on?

Svetla

2011-2023 Paxil

2023-2024 Effexor

Since February 2024 in anhedonia caused by the long use of AD

February 2024-March 2025 drug after drug after drug... 70 rTMS sessions, 8 ketamin infusions-nothing worked

March 2025 CT upon doctor "advice" from Desipramine, Viibryd, Lithium at high doses all together in 6 days

Since then awful withdrawal: unbearable anxiety, panic attacks, adrenaline rushes, hot flashes, muscle pain over all the body, insomnia, depression, intrusive thoughts, brain fog

Current tapering Mirtazapine : December 29,2025-3 mg, February,15, 2025-2,7 mg, February,28-2,5 mg, March,8-2 mg, March,14-1,5 mg, March,20-0 mg

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February 23Feb 23

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Morning and a huge thanks to ALL. Here I am after 3 hours broken sleep still on a -0 at 1.30am wide

awake. Still in living hell mode. Yesterday was one of the worst ever and looking like it's going to be

the same today. Short rubbish sleep is the indicator. Forgive me for not responding to posts, as I just

have not got the energy.

I am feeling absolutely s**t this morning not sure if I will get out for a walk yet or not. The vicious wave

is making me catastrophize about my car, it really has dropped me in the s**t at the worst time possible.

Now it's taking a long time to fix, but it's SO complicated. Not recognizing the keys, so locked in park

with no ignition and all 4 wheels locked.

BSI unit problem, which has to be sent to specialists with a doner one to be cloned, problem with a boot

lock as well, so a complicated mass of problems with it. Main dealer would have been a better bet, BUT

they are 50 miles away. Would also have been VERY expensive. SO if independent garage CAN'T do it????

Cost of transport and the EXPENSIVE fix would not be good, maybe more than the car is worth.

So have I done right selling the motorbike? Was for living expenses really, but is now going to be swallowed

up with fixing or getting another old car. Problems I do NOT need among this nightmare PWD living hell.

So in a nightmare position at the moment, compounded in every which way. NO idea what's going to happen.

Take great care ALL, B.

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

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February 23Feb 23

You are so amazingly stoic and enduring B. It seems so unfair to be going through so much all at once.

You are in my prayers.

No need to reply and thank me as I know how hard that can be. Just take the support 😘

Aug 2006 - Sertraline 25/50/75/100mg TO June 2019 - Reduced from 100mg to 50mg over a few months

Sept 2019 - Reduced from 50mg to 25mg lasted a week, then went back up to 50mg, after a few weeks back up to 100mg.

Oct 2021 - Reduced to 75mg, Dec 2021 (mid) reduced to 50mg , March 2022 - Reduced to 25mg

Oct 2022 - Reduce to 0mg (Immediate withdrawal crying, mood unstable, impending doom, digestive probs, tingling,numbness,burning, brain zaps, insomnia)

Feb 2023 - "Panic attack" lasting 14 hours, 2 weeks later start back on 25mg sertraline, 12 hours later severe 'panic attack' with chest pain, tachycardia, restlessness, hyponatraemia, impending doom, racing thoughts, akathisia mild. Taken to emergency.

March 2023 back up to 50mg (on medical advice), April 75mg, May 100mg. Back to 75mg within a few weeks due to feeling too stimulated and anxious.

Nov 2023 resume taper. 70, 65, 60, 55, 50 (March 2024)

April 45mg, May 41mg, June 37mg, July 34mg Aug 31mg, Sept 28mg, Oct 26mg, Nov 25mg, HOLD

Jan 1st 2025 24mg, Jan 12th 23.5mg, Jan 20th 23mg, Feb 20th 22mg, March 20th 21mg, April 14th 18.9mg, May 5th 17mg, May 28th 15.3mg, July 16th 13.7mg, Aug 26th 12.3mg, Sept 16th 10.5 mg, Sept 22, 10mg, Oct 7th 8.3mg, Nov 4th 8mg, Dec 1st 7.7mg, Dec 26th 7mg 2026 Updose to 7.2mg Mar 20th, Back to 7mg Mar 21. Currently holding

Other supplements: Fish oil, Mg citrate/glycinate 150-300mg per day, Ginkgo biloba daily, womens multi vit/min 3 times week, Vitamin C 1000mg night, valerian/passiflora as needed. B12 as needed. Bone support for osteopaenia (Ca/Mg, K, D)

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February 23Feb 23

Author

Thanks @Tracey no problem, I hope you are doing OK. God Bless, and thanks.🤞

Take care, B.

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

February 23Feb 23

3 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Morning and a huge thanks to ALL. Here I am after 3 hours broken sleep still on a -0 at 1.30am wide

awake. Still in living hell mode. Yesterday was one of the worst ever and looking like it's going to be

the same today. Short rubbish sleep is the indicator. Forgive me for not responding to posts, as I just

have not got the energy.

Morning B

Dont you apologise for anything mate. We ALL understand. You must do what’s right for you. Post whatever you want when you want. No obligation here.
You’ve been thrown into the deeper part of the wave again. Just signs of more MAJOR repair work taking place. You’ll get the reward for all this I know it! Your systems working hard here to get you sorted.

3 hours ago, NT1100B said:

am feeling absolutely s**t this morning not sure if I will get out for a walk yet or not. The vicious wave

is making me catastrophize about my car, it really has dropped me in the s**t at the worst time possible.

Now it's taking a long time to fix, but it's SO complicated. Not recognizing the keys, so locked in park

with no ignition and all 4 wheels locked.

It is the last thing you’ve needed right now. I CANNOT wait till it’s sorted. It will be. It’s just feeding the wave brain isn’t it. Got it crossed they get it done soon. Damm electrics and cars. Always the main problem.

3 hours ago, NT1100B said:

So have I done right selling the motorbike? Was for living expenses really, but is now going to be swallowed

up with fixing or getting another old car. Problems I do NOT need among this nightmare PWD living hell.

So in a nightmare position at the moment, compounded in every which way. NO idea what's going to happen.

Take great care ALL, B.

I think you have. Even if you end up buying a car with the money a bikes no place for you on 4 hours sleep a night. You need a shopping machine. Groceries in the back and a cage round you. Hope it doesn’t come to that and you can use the money to tickle by till retirement.
By that time I’m hoping all this will be a distant memory and you can enjoy these years like you deserve.

Chippy

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

February 23Feb 23

3 hours ago, NT1100B said:

Forgive me for not responding to posts, as I just

have not got the energy.

Never apologize…we all get it…sometimes I just have to dig my hole and stay there for a bit. Just do what you need to do to cope, survive, endure. Love you …big hugs. ❤️🙏

I am not a medical professional. My comments are based on my personal experience and information on SA.

Paroxetine-2002 onward-20mg/ Citalopram-2007-20 mg-straight switch from paroxetine-back to paroxetine after a month/ Sertraline -25 mg-Dec 2016- given for a month instead of paroxetine (doctor mistake) Oxazepam -10 mg-2016-twice weekly for a couple months for sleep/ Zopiclone -3.75-7.5mg-2020-2022-once a week for sleep/Paroxetine -20 yr+/ Dec2018-May 2022 20 mg/ May 2022 30mg/2022.07.28-2022.08.24 30mg to 0mg/ Prozac-10mg August 24-29 2022/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.11.28-2022.12.04/10mg-Dec 5&6/22/ Prozac-10mg-Dec 8&9/22/Paroxetine -5mg-2022.12.07 to 2023.07.01

TAPER-Paroxetine-2023-Jul 2-4.9mg/ Jul 21-4.8mg/Jul 28-4.73mg/Aug 4-4.65mg /Sep 21-4.58 mg/Oct 27-4.56 mg/Dec 5-4.54 mg/2024-Jan 2-4.52 mg/Jan 9-4.51 mg/Jan 17-4.49 mg/Jan 26-4.47mg/Feb 6-4.46mg/Feb 19-4.44mg /Apr 4-4.43mg/Apr 28-4.4 mg/May 5-4.39 mg/May 19-4.36 mg/Jul 2-4.34 mg/Jul 9-4.32mg/Jul 31-4.3 mg/Oct 1-4.29mg/Nov 27-4.25 mg/Dec 5-4.22mg/2025-Jan 5-4.17mg/Feb 2-4.1mg/Mar 7-4.07mg/Apr 23-4.04mg/May 23-4mg/Jun 22-3.99mg/Jun 30-3.95mg/Jul 18-3.92mg/Sep 25-3.9mg/2026-Mar 25-3.85mg

9am-paroxetine, 200mg mag bisglycinate/75 mg DGL if needed for refux/150 mg calcium citrate/algae oil for omega 3/ginger 400 mg as needed for nausea

"... your strength will be in keeping calm..."-Isaiah 30:15

February 23Feb 23

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1 hour ago, LostinCanada said:

Just do what you need to do to cope, survive, endure. Love you …big hugs. ❤️🙏

Thanks @LostinCanada you are a star, I sincerely hope you are doing better now and feeling OK.

We just have to keep plodding.

Take care, B.🙏🙏🙏💙

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

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February 23Feb 23

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1 hour ago, Chippy said:

By that time I’m hoping all this will be a distant memory and you can enjoy these years like you deserve.

Chippy

Thanks @Chippy time will tell of course on that one, but feeling worse than I ever have at the moment,

This is not living in any way, it's just pure survival.

Take care, B.

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

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February 23Feb 23

1 minute ago, NT1100B said:

Thanks @Chippy time will tell of course on that one, but feeling worse than I ever have at the moment,

This is not living in any way, it's just pure survival.

Take care, B.

Wish there was more I could do. 😞

We’re all here for you mate.

I’m not a medical professional and cannot offer medical advice. I only offer my thoughts as support. Please speak to your health practitioner about your care. This is a peer site where we support each other on our taper/recovery journeys.

If you are from the UK please make sure you fill in a 'Yellow Card' report for the MHRA. It is you doing your bit to help make a difference.

Please take the time to do it today 🙂 https://yellowcard.mhra.gov.uk

For US members details here.

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February 23Feb 23

Author

Hi again all, well after my earlier post I went on a 3.15am walk, 8c and was dry but feeling cooler in the wind.

I was very lethargic again with very low energy. So getting back about 3.50am I decided to go back to bed.

Miraculously grabbed another hours sleep, taking it to my 4 hours again.

The trouble is I feel like death warmed up at the moment, so NOT looking forwards to the day ahead. The

way I am feeling at the moment is that this nightmare is NEVER going to end. Now I do know this is wave

thinking, but I really do just feel SO helpless at the minute.

Never before on this journey have I felt as BAD as I do now, again the wave has raised the bar to another

new level, even more vicious than ever before, almost unbearable, I thought I would have to ring for a crisis

team yesterday, even aware of the consequences. I am just hoping it doesn't come to that. Second, minute,

hour and day at a snails pace.

Take care, B.

2001-2021 Prozac 20mg

2020-2021 Tramadol 300mg

2022 April 15th Started Mirtazapine 15mg

2022 Sept 15 dropped to 7.5mg

2023 May 16th failed CT reinstated.

2023 June 30th tapering off

2025 Jan 7th Stopped all drugs.

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February 23Feb 23

Sorry B

You are having a shocker.

BUT an extra hours sleep is unheard of for you??! Could that be progress in a weird way!!

can you get out again now it’s light? Sit on the doorstep with that light in your eyes for 20/30 minutes. No glasses. Tell your brain….its morning brain 🧠

I’ve got a sun lamp I use if I can’t go out.

in dark moments I re read Baylissas book which gives me hope 🕊️

you’ve got this B

this wave will lift

xxx

- Compazine injury following surgery used as an anti nausea drug Feb 2023, led to agitation and racing thoughts

- tried to cope med free, advised to start Prozac May 2023 20mg

- made me worse but was told to persevere, believe I had an adverse reaction.
- decided to taper after 6 months of use at 20mg. Went down over 14/15 months to 1.5mg.

- February 2025 came off 1.5mg due to feeling good and didn’t know this would lead to such strong WD

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February 23Feb 23

Dear B., I feel you very well. It is a pure Hell,and I am so sorry for us. All the night was a terror for me also, with a constant cortisol spikes, my breast is crashed, the damnish sensation is unbearable, I don't know what to do with my body. These adrenaline waves are from the day 1 of the CT and have lasted since one year,and don't know how many time they will continue to torture me. Plus anhedonia, hopelessness, apathy, fatigue, depression... inhumane suffering. What a mess.

But we don't have a choice, B., we must endure this horrific journey. This terror has to stop one day, hasn't it??????

Svetla

2011-2023 Paxil

2023-2024 Effexor

Since February 2024 in anhedonia caused by the long use of AD

February 2024-March 2025 drug after drug after drug... 70 rTMS sessions, 8 ketamin infusions-nothing worked

March 2025 CT upon doctor "advice" from Desipramine, Viibryd, Lithium at high doses all together in 6 days

Since then awful withdrawal: unbearable anxiety, panic attacks, adrenaline rushes, hot flashes, muscle pain over all the body, insomnia, depression, intrusive thoughts, brain fog

Current tapering Mirtazapine : December 29,2025-3 mg, February,15, 2025-2,7 mg, February,28-2,5 mg, March,8-2 mg, March,14-1,5 mg, March,20-0 mg

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